You know how almost 24/7 we are underestimating God and how good he is?
Ashamed, I say yes to this question.
We think the Lord of the Universe isn’t able to redeem us or bring us joy in situations where there is no and nothing to bring us happiness.
Recently I have come to terms with the fact that my time for now in Guatemala is over.
Because until about 3 months ago now I would recognize myself as “healthy,” Attachment for me was always very unhealthy. Where there was too much of it or not enough. The Lord has showed me balance in my attachment to people and places since being on the race.
He has redeemed me from attachment issues.
Praise God.
Back home I was happy most of the time. My overwhelming enthusiasm was a coping mechanism at most costs which would cause me to numb feelings or situations. But sometimes not. Most of the time I was genuinely happy with where I was at.
My situation at home was amazing and I have been blessed. I have amazing family and friends that are supportive and make me laugh till my ribs hurt.
Coming onto the race I had the notion that nothing would or could compare to the situation I had at home. Nothing could make me happier or no one could give me the joy like the people I had in my life.
How wonderful that I had a place so hard to leave.
Praise God.
The last week God has been teaching me about being content in every moment. Especially when I am weak and letting him fill in the gaps.
Today, only having about a week left in Guatemala. I am feeling really sad about leaving.
I am thinking of my “why”? Why am I feeling this way about Guatemala?
I have only been here for three months . I don’t get attached easily. Why am I feeling this way?
Jesus revealed that in this moment and these moments without everything I have been blessed with in my life I can still be happy.
That without EVERYTHING. God is still joy. God is still happiness. God is still enough.
Thanks God for being enough.
Thanks God for being greater than me.
Thank You Guatemala for giving me abundant joy and letting me see the different faces of God.
