Yesterday we were told our squad and route would be clear to continue and finish this race. This morning I woke up to a screenshot message that ALL squads will be coming back to the states. In less than 10 hours literally everything changed.
I thought I would have another month and a half to: ready my heart, prepare next steps, decide who belongs in my inner circle as I face this tough transition, and to get used to the idea of not seeing these people (MY people) every day.
I have so many questions, so many emotions, and ultimately I am just incredibly overwhelmed.
I came to my room which overlooks the beautiful Patong beach of Phuket, Thailand to sit with the Lord, open the word, and worship. The song “Graves to Gardens” by Elevation came through my headphones and the spirit reminded me of the truth that always recenters…
Despite the excitement and purpose that comes with this lifestyle of traveling the world telling people about Jesus, NOTHING is better than Him. I sometimes have to pinch myself when I find myself in the most beautiful places of the world, finding the craziest adventures, living a life I didn’t know I dreamed of. I ask myself “does it get better than this?” at least once a day (not to say the hard stuff hasn’t been mind-blowingly difficult and it’s sometimes “can it get worse than this?”). I was reminded that even as much as I love this life, literally nothing is better than Jesus. It is for HIM and because of HIM that I am here in the first place.
The world doesn’t fill me, Jesus does.
My desires are satisfied in Him and by Him alone.
This year has been the most difficult, BEST, year of my life. I have been broken beyond anything I thought possible. I have seen things I did not believe in before the race. I have changed… oh boy have I changed. I don’t recognize the person I was a year ago.
I honestly don’t even know where to start when it comes to processing and preparing. I have no idea what my plans are post-race. The only thing I am certain of is that God knows what I need and He wants to provide that for me.
He is GOOD, He is never surprised, and He is always filled with patience as He waits on me.
It is my prayer that the people I come home to will be filled with a similar grace and patience as I navigate re-entry and next steps.
God will make a way. He is faithful to finish what He started.
We will be on American soil in a few short days, but I really don’t have much more information than that.
I am eternally thankful for the WR and the people it has brought me to. Thank you to every person that supported me, in any capacity, in making this thing a reality.
PS
In Myanmar I read the whole Bible in 4 days and it totally rocked my world. Be on the look out for my takeaways. I love the Word with all my heart!
