Uh, the Middle. Somewhere in between the *what if I worked full-time for God (!!)* and deciding the *how to do it.*
Many ways to do it. Yet, every idea I came across didn’t feel like >>> me <<<. Go to seminary school. Nope. Work at a church. Nope. Go on a missionary trip. YES.
Missions trip sit in my heart in a way that I cannot explain. Like I can’t explain why I love crinkled fries or why I like to pray in this super random spot near the indoor plants in my home or the way I feel when someone I just met becomes my instant “cousin” haha.
Okay so missions trip. It’s a dream of mine to travel the world spreading the love of Christ. The dream sparked when I came across trips that went all over the world for one year. I told myself, baby steps… go on a short one first.
And after going to El Salvador, I came back saying that I want to go on a trip every year. Then my *what if I worked full-time for God* moment happened and it got me thinking about the long-term missions trip again.
So I kept Googling to try to find the same trips that sparked everything but had no luck for months. Then one day… BAM, the World Race popped up. Believe it or not, I wasn’t sure if I should apply. All that spark talk and when it came time… I was scared.
In my moment of doubt, I clicked on a Racer’s video to see what he had to say about it. I saw a guy sitting in a chair, back faced towards me, dark room, air filled with cigarette smoke. I thought to myself, here’s a story I don’t see everyday.
He said his friend invited him to go this Race. As he was filling out the application, he thought… why would they ever accept someone like me?? He answered ‘Yes’ to a lot of questions that he thought would disqualify him from going. But it didn’t stop him.
Well guess what?! He got accepted (!!). He gave me the boldness to apply as me… the me that I was, the me as I am and the me that is becoming who I already am.
And YAY, I got accepted too! I’ll be training hard for you World Race. 11 countries in 11 months. June 2019. Fundraising goal: $19,200.
Being in the middle is tough. It’s like you know what you want but don’t know how to do it… yet. It means so much to me that you want to invest in my story and the Race I’m going on as my *how* unfolds into the *go.*
<3 Tee
