Moments
Life.
Life is made up of moments.
Beautiful pieces of experience.
Passing in a matter of seconds.
Never the same.
New every second.
The only moment you can every be in is the one you’re experiencing at this very second.
Reflecting on my time in Swaziland I can’t help but hold onto the moments that have come and since passed me by. Maybe moments full of joy, growth, love, and beauty.
In many of those moments I wish I could pause time. That I could stay in that exact moment for eternity. These moments are ones I will never forget. Some of these include the tears I cried as I held gift a little boy I love as my own for the very last time, climbing a mountain with my team, team lighthouse, and our dear swazi friends dolly, Mfanthuini, and Ching Chong, dancing around the kitchen while cooking dinner for the squad with dolly singing at the top of our lungs, talking to Mfanthuini about all of his hopes, dreams, and love for the Lord, eating ice blocks in 110 degrees with kids and teammates I love dearly, playing pretend with gift fixing and cleaning imaginary cars, going down the slide countless times with as many lids that could pile on my lap possible, sitting on the bench under the shade tree with a kid in your lap smiling and laughing, watching amazing sunsets oooing and awwwing at the Lord’s beauty with squad mates, seeing more stars than ever before while laying on the poop slab (it the concrete slab above the septic tank), having breakfast with friends in the prayer garden and doing devos there, finding truth and healing through conversations with abba, meeting Jesus in beautiful imagery in my mind and just hanging out with him, celebrating Christmas with the squad over Christmas cookies, watching movies on laptops and eating kettle cooked popcorn, walking to homes in the community just to say hi and pray for the people of the community, hanging out at homes of kids that we love, going to the gas station on adventure day, all these moments are ones I would relive over and over again if I could, but what makes them so special is the beautiful people who played a key role in each of these moments. This last week has been full of some of the hardest goodbyes I’ve ever had to say. The depth of relationships the Lord has blessed me to be able to have in Swaziland is beyond extraordinary and I can say with out a doubt that these people who have taught me so much are hearts that I will never forget. I’m thankful to love so deeply that it hurts this bad to leave.
I am choosing to lean into being present as I leave Swaziland because it would be easy for my broken heart to stay in Swaziland but I am walking in Faith that the good God that I am following has more and even greater moments coming that I will not want to miss out on. So I pray abba that you would do it again. I am full of joy because the now is the exact moments God has for my life and they are the best possible moments for me to be in.
Thank you Jesus for the gift Swaziland has been. I love you.
Tes
