Here’s a glimpse of what my past two weeks have looked like:
My two weeks of “preparation” haven’t left me feeling to prepared as I run to the store every other day. They have actually made me feel less prepared than before. These days have been filled with many lasts, many goodbyes, and many tears. To be honest with you, every goodbye that is said makes me more sad to leave. I have realized how blessed I am with friends, family, and good memories. So here is the brutal truth… are you ready? I have been feeling the weight of leaving. It is painful, at least it was.
In these past few weeks I have had a strong held relationship with my heavenly father. I sat back and watched as he sent me out to do some very specific things. I was unsure of why now I was doing them until I read a devo that talked about being ready to leave for so long and how I needed to have peace with everything in my life in The States. I continued to pray and watch as The Lord filled my heart & mind with an overwhelming peace.
A few days ago I was reminded of something… something so big my view began to change. Where I felt pain for leaving behind my life here, God brought joy. You see I viewed leaving everyone here as no longer making memories. I thought that leaving meant I was no longer their friend and I wouldn’t see them again. Then I was reminded of our eternity in heaven. I was reminded that I get to meet new friends & bring them with me to meet my friends back here. I see the image of everyone I know in heaven at a huge party. How glorious!
This is not a time to be sad. We will meet again, weather our paths on earth cross or not, we always have eternity in heaven. I am here to bring glory to God & make new friends in his name.
A GLORIOUS thank you to our Father in heaven for all he does for us. And a HUGE thank you to all who went on the coffee dates, long drives, adventures, and (of course) Mexican dinners with me. You are loved & I will miss you dearly. It’s never goodbye, it’s a sweet see ya later.
