“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” -Proverbs 3:5
I have been thinking about this verse a lot. At the beginning of this journey, I thought everything was going to be smooth sailing and I would have no problems at all. The problem was the fact that I thought I COULD DO IT.
Let’s just say God showed me real quick that I couldn’t do this alone. I faced many obstacles and had many doubts. There were many days that I thought I was not qualified or that the money was never going to come in. I felt so defeated. The devil was in my ear big time. He kept telling me all these lies and I believed them. I was so focused on trying to fix all of these problems and doubts that I was actually being pulled further away from God. I continued to have negative thoughts and it got to the point where I wanted to give up the race completely. The devil had won…or so he thought.
It wasn’t until I was having a conversation with a family member and they asked why I wanted to do the race. I was telling them about how I wanted to go and share Gods love with those who were longing for Him and to those who didn’t even know who He was. I wanted God to use me to be a light to others. Then it hit me! I had lost sight of what was truly important. My squadmates and I have a calling to go out and be His disciples and He was going to make that happen. “Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.” -Psalms 37:5
I had no reason to doubt His way of doing things. He is not on the same timeline as we are and I am starting to realize that. He has a plan for me and He will use me to go out and share His love. I have put all of my faith in Him and trust Him completely. It is His will and His way.
Thank you for reading,
Skylar Barbee
