Singapore, what a country. When we were at debrief, in Malaysia, praying about out next steps as a team we all felt called to Singapore. I had no idea what Singapore was like. From the moment we arrived at the bus station it felt like we were being welcomed home. Everyone was so happy and conversational. It has been an incredible few days here.
We went to the International House of Prayer Singapore on Saturday. It was incredible to be able to worship and pray together and see how God is on the move. It was incredible to see the hunger they had for more of God. It was encouraging listening to them pray for the churches in China. On Sunday we went to Every Nation Church Singapore. I met people who had studied in Pennsylvania and many have been to the states. It was like a little taste of home. The worship was on point and the pastor spoke with wisdom. A lovely couple took us to lunch and loved on us. After all these wonderful encounters I found myself being renewed and ready for more. Seeking more of God and to ask Him daily who He has on His heart for the day. Also being attentive to the Holy Spirit with every step I take around the city.
Feeling raw, that is how I can best describe how I feel at the moment. Sometimes God teaches us a hard lesson or a lesson that leaves us feeling a little raw. This was one of those times. We were at a hawker center (like a food court) and we were looking at the different menus trying to find the cheapest (life on a world race budget). I noticed this man sitting my himself, staring really hard at the table. But I wasn’t sure if it was the Holy Spirit or just my observant self. I kept walking but still couldn’t shake what I had seen. I asked a team member if they saw and they asked me if God was telling me to do something. Part of me wanted to say no and just order food, but I could not shake it. So why not.
I walked over to him and noticed he was staring at two coins. I introduced myself and there was no response. I asked him if he needed help and still nothing. I told him how much the coins were and he still just stared. I had no idea what to do. So I just said a little prayer and told him that Jesus loves Him. That was it.
I walked away feeling defeated and helpless. I was expecting some crazy awesome God moment and instead I got no response. Now at a total loss to why God would have me do that I asked Him the reason.
His response, “Am I still enough?”
I wanted to help the man.
I wanted him to know that he is seen.
I wanted him to know that he is more valuable than those coins.
I just wanted to know his name.
But the truth is, He knows that man’s name. He sees the man. He knows the pains and the struggles he has faced. He values him.
At the end of the day…
All God wanted was for me to know He is still enough for me.
