Proverbs 16:9
A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.
I finally realized the amount of control I let flesh have over me when I started to tell myself when to cry and when not to. We live in a world where the mindset of having a cookie-cutter life is an unsaid requirement. Flesh says, we must operate in a “It’s my way or the highway” world. When we feed into the self control and into the cookie-cutter mindset, that opens the door to controlling others. When you surrender control, and stop operating out of flesh, you’ll fully receive everything Kingdom has to offer you.
I realized that flesh had the biggest control over me two months ago. I was so busy that I “didn’t have time for God.” HAHA. JOKES ON ME, because I always have time for God but I wasn’t making it a priority. I let the world control my schedule, when I slept, who I spent my time with, literally, this earthly world had its grips held tight on me. I wasn’t okay with that. I wasn’t okay with keeping it all together all the time. I decided that living out of flesh wasn’t what I wanted anymore. I couldn’t live my life laid down with the grips still on. If I truly wanted to be a vessel for Kingdom here on earth, it would require me to surrender full control. So I did just that.
I gave up most earthly things. I surrendered how I operated. If it wasn’t Kingdom and it didn’t make God smile, then I wasn’t doing it. I came to the conclusion that if I wanted an intimate relationship with Jesus, I needed to let go of the poverty mindset that was controlling me.
One month ago I changed the way I operated. I did that by only listening to worship music. I stopped watching unhealthy shows. I started honoring my friends in a healthy way. If it wasn’t encouraging or uplifting, I wanted nothing to do with it. Through doing all of this, it allowed God to come into my heart in new ways. I let go of literally everything that ever felt “safe” and God showed me true safety. He came in and healed hurts that I didn’t even know I had. He’s seriously so dang good to me.
I guess the point of this blog and telling you my short story is this- just do it. Let go. Control is our biggest enemy and I promise you life is way better when you completely lay it down. When there’s nothing between you and Heaven, you literally live your best life. Jesus came in and flipped my world upside down in every good way possible. When I let go, funds for this trip started coming in. I started living a slowed down life, AMEN, I woke up with nothing but joy in my heart because that’s exactly what Jesus is. When I only allow Kingdom in, I experience a true, intimate love from the only person that really matters.
I really love you Jesus, you’re the only one I want.
