Walking with Christ is funny man. It goes against the fleshly desire to seize control and be head captain of our own life. What is does require is for us to be in a stance of surrender by giving the reins over to God. The more we control the more out of control things seem to get, but the choice of “let go and let God,” is always accompanied with a peace that surpasses all understanding!! & even when we’ve seen this promise play true in our lives over and over again we somehow still manage to get caught up in the lie that we know better than God.
I think we’ve all been in a situation, *or many* where we clearly hear the “No!” From God. It may not be an audible “NO!” we hear but He speaks. He speaks to our heartstrings…even when we don’t want to listen. I’ve heard His voice and direction during the dissatisfaction felt at a club, 2 am praise and worships sessions in my room, conversations with strangers, through the mouth of preachers, from the radiant smiles of orphans in Haiti, and most clearly and loudly in the silent stillness spent in His presence. The question isn’t “do we hear the voice of God?” but rather, “is our heart in the right position to accept the word and mission God has for us?” When our heart, mind, and soul aren’t positioned in the hands of the Mighty One we’ll spend our time running far from our calling and ignoring Gods divine plans for our life (as if our short-sighted vision could ever compare)…AND this my friends is where it gets funny. If you’re anything like me you may start to petition with God and present your case to Him as to why what you desire is the direction you must walk in. Like “Look God I love you, I wanna walk with you…but I want us to walk this way…ok?” As I’ve grown in my faith, whenever I think of Gods plans not aligning with mine (ahahaha) I try to play the tape forward and what comes to mind is Jcole’s lyrics “The good news is you came a long way. The bad news is you went the wrong way.” & That line really strikes me and puts into perspective for me where my role needs to be in my walk with God. Yes, walking in my own direction, based on my wants and desires, I may go a long way but I never want to end up further away from Gods plans for me because I didn’t surrender over control. I fully know and trust that God will use me and direct me strategically where He needs me (even if I don’t understand at times) I give over control to Him. His plans are way mightier than mine could ever be…And although I rest assured in this truth now, I have gotten my fair share of “No’s.” from God and sadly I spent a lot my time justifying and chasing after what God was trying to save me from. This only further distanced me from the “Yes!!!!” God had for me… BUT Thank God we serve a GRACIOUS Father who always welcomes us back into his arms and redirects our focus back to the cross. I now can see that everything God has kept me from has prepared me for the season I am in now and the journey I am about to adventure into with Him. These spoken words crafted by the gifted mind of Hosana Poetry is my anthem for this Journey I’m going on with Jesus, “I can trust God with my life. God has a plan for me. I was born with a purpose, I was born with talents, I was born with a mission to set the captives free. I can trust God with my life!” So God thank you for choosing me to be your messenger. The truth is, you do know what’s best, so my bad for ever running from your plans for me. Hineni! “Here I am God, use me.”
