Hi friends! It has been a little bit since I have taken the time to set down and write a blog to let you all know what is going on in my life and what the Lord has been teaching me!
As many of you all know, I got sent home off the international field in March. The process from then to now was hard. I distanced myself from my family because I wasn’t where I thought I should be (thank you guys for extending me much grace during that time) and I stayed mad at God. It was easy to question what He was doing during this time and not hold on to trusting in Him. We were told within 60 days we would know more information about what things will look like moving forward. I held on to so much hope during that time to this email we would be getting. In my head it was what was going to get me out of the mess covid had created. Unfortunately for our squad, we decided not to stay together (all 30 of us). We were given time to ourselves to pray about what was next for us individually.
During this time of praying, the Lord reminded me of a time when we were on our way home from Thailand and He told me I was being called to the states. At the time, I was so annoyed at the Lord for telling me that. I obviously knew that since He was forcing me on a plane home to the States. Resistant of doing the ministry option in America and holding on to the fact I wanted to go overseas, I ignored these reminders from the Lord. A few days later a friend of mine randomly reached out and said they thought World Race America would be a great option for me. A few days after that a bible study that I was doing with one of my closest friends was also pointing me towards this decision to do World Race. America. I still in my heart wanted to go back overseas. I cannot tell you how many times Kylie, Annie, and I texted each other with ideas we had about how to get us back overseas. The problem with all of our planning is it was so off the wall and nothing was consistent. Our plans changed multiple times a day. If I had to compare it to anything it would be the equivalent to the chaos in a pin ball machine. If there is one thing I have learned, friends, it is that the God I serve is not a God of confusion. He has the Spirit of peace and that supernatural peace is given to us by Him. The plans my friends and I were planning were the last thing from peace from God. After all of this, I decided to change my heart posture towards the Lord. No longer was it “God this is what I desire”, but instead “God what do you desire for my life?”. The Lord walked me through all the times I prior mentioned where I was ignoring His leading in my life. Praise God that He is so patient with us ( He has to be way more with me than many of His children- I am sure of it ).
With all of that being said, I am doing World Race America! I get to do it with five girls from my squad and I cannot be any more overjoyed about the women I will be doing it with! I am in Gainesville, Georgia now where I will be spending a week to sabbath and lean into the Lord. Next week I will be training for this new adventure! We leave July 31st through the end of November and are planning (without covid interrupting that is) to go to Indiana, Idaho, Washington, California, Arizona, Colorado, Illinois, and Tennessee. Please be praying for unity amongst our team and that the devil have no room to tear us apart, a hedge of protection as we travel through covid, a fruitful four months of growth for all of us individually, and for harvest/healing/and revival in our nation! As always: thank you, thank you, thank you to all the support you all have shown me and continue to give me!
