I am currently sitting on a plane headed to South Korea, so I’m going to give you all a rundown of training camp. There’s nothing like a fifteen hour flight ??
I have always been up to traveling somewhere. I’ve never had a hard time leaving home.
I was very excited and anxious for training camp; I couldn’t wait to see what it was going to be like. However, I was a little sad too.
I expected myself to be a little sad and maybe shed a tear or two because I was leaving for a couple months.
But, I was taken by surprise when I arrived. I was way more than a little sad. I was SO upset. I walked in the doors, went to meet my team, and I don’t think I’ve ever been more uncomfortable in my life.
I was extremely uncomfortable and I had absolutely no peace at all about it. My mom and Cade were in a meeting with some of the leaders and they were given little details about the trip. After we all met our teams and our leaders, it was time for dinner. This was the last time we would be able to say goodbye to our families. When I saw them, I just sobbed. I didn’t understand why I didn’t feel a peace about it. I didn’t understand why I was so uncomfortable. I didn’t understand why everyone around me was smiling and laughing with their families and I wasn’t. I could barely hold back my tears when we ate dinner. But, I knew I was suppose to be here because I knew that’s what God had called me to do. Even though I felt so uncomfortable and just wanted to turn around and go home, somewhere in me knew I had to stay.
Saying ‘see you later’ to them was a very cherished, teary eyed moment. When I heard Cade pray over me, I finally felt a little peace. I knew I could do this. I knew God had me here for a reason.
The next day was better and the days have gotten better ever since. Each day when I wake up, I can literally feel the prayers and all the love from home.
I have prayed so hard for peace. Peace, not comfortability. God calls us out of our comfort zones, and sometimes it doesn’t look like you imagined it in your head. Sometimes it looks like real tears, real sadness, and little peace. Yet, even in that midst of being so out of your comfort zone, you still go. You still go because you know He is faithful, and those feelings aren’t forever. You believe He’ll bring you through it.
In the four days we spent at training camp, I saw God in a new light. I learned what it looked like to really lean in to the Holy Spirit. I experienced and saw a group of believers worshiping like never before, and it was so beautiful.
My team is so great. We’re all getting to know each other more each day and grow as a team and as individuals. There is fifteen of us all including our leader (AND WE LOVE HER BTW). It’s become like my own little group of sisters. We have laughed, cried, carried three fourths of our body weight through airports until we can’t stand anymore. We have danced, sang, and even had a mini yoga class right in the middle of fifty Koreans while waiting to board our flight.
It has been the best time, and I cannot WAIT to see what God’s going to do through us all.
Please continue to lift us up in prayer, we feel them every day!
