the past month for me has been what some people would call a dry season. ive been wrestling back and fourth with worry and doubt thinking “maybe the world race isn’t for me, maybe it isn’t where the Lord wants me..” ive also been struggling A LOT with grasping the concept of leaving for nine months and just dropping everything, getting up and going. im a people person and i like to say that i love people well and leaving my friends for long period of time honestly breaks my heart. i love my friends with every singe piece of me. its been a real hard past couple of weeks. because of the feelings i was having i began to speak. id talk to God and ask him to show up in my life, and in my heart, and in my mind. i asked him to show me where im supposed to be, to show me the path he wants me on, and to show me where my feet need to be planted, to just simply show up. and he did.
it was a sunday morning in the 11 o’clock service at Journey Church. the preacher was preaching and he said something that just really stuck out. he said “God places you with a purpose. he dosent place you somewhere with no intentions. He places you to be a witness, to share your story, and to share the truth of the Gospel.” and when he said that i was in awe. i instantly knew God was speaking to me. i got to spend the rest of the day spending quality time with my best friends. the people i love most. reminding me that these moments will happen again. later that night, at GSM chase, the youth minister at my church started talking about making sacrifices. he said “sometimes you have to sacrifice the things you love and cherish most to do what God has called you to do and be who God wants you to be.”. i was just like.. OKAY GOD. i see you. I SEE YOU. i believe that the world race is my true calling. i’m supposed to be here. people ask me “well what if you don’t make enough money?” and i just look at them and i say, if it is Gods will.. he will provide. If i don’t raise enough money, clearly i will be upset but i will know that God has something bigger for me. I think it’s super cool how God has and still continues to move in my life. it’s pretty neat when i look at it all. I’m so excited for this journey of my life. I’m excited to be uncomfortable, i’m excited to be stretched out into a new identity that God creates for me. I’m excited to see how my relationship with christ is about to unfold. i’m excited for this chapter. Gods showing up, and he’s got a tight grip on me.
