Pride. A problem I never thought I had but being on the race has taught me that pride has taken major control in my life. Far to long to be exact. But I’ll speak for myself when I state this (however I think it may apply to us all) but pride has been the fuel for many things in my life. For example, I used pride to place walls that I didn’t want people to break down. I used pride to give me a false confidence that I’m the savior. I used pride to fuel my “I can fix it” mentality. And in the season of transparency, I even used pride to convince myself that I do not need to be discipled because I already know what’s up.
As you may of guessed… The Lord saw how much pride was affecting me and said not in my house and began to strip it away from me. It was and still is extremely painful. However, how lucky are we that we serve a God who loves us so much to discipline us and correct us out of everlasting love. It’s incredible, to say the least. But I remember when He first started really removing some things that I was clinching onto- it was about two weeks ago to be exact and I found myself wishing that it was all said and done. Like God, just humble me without actually humbling me. Please and thank you.
But then one night we had a bonfire, and glory be to God, I had picked up some jank marshmallows from the Dispensa to make some s’mores. Personally, I enjoy my s’more really burnt. So as usual, I placed my marshmallow on the stick and stuck it in the middle of the flames until it caught on fire, then I pulled it out, blew out the flames, and took a bite. The outside was crisp to a tee but the inside tasted just as jank as before. And boom. That’s when The Lord spoke to me.
Because you see, I took a bite out of what I thought was a burnt, perfect marshmallow. I had done everything that I was suppose to do, I even let it catch on fire but I was highly disappointed when the core was just as plain as before. So the I stuck it back in The flames, How many times do we find ourselves in the fire and we are so quick to want to jump out?
We get in there and feel the flames, and the heat and think we are good and on the outside we look good but nothing has changed on the inside. That’s because we didn’t stay in there long enough. We are so quick to rush the process when things get uncomfortable or when things make us uneasy, but what if that’s exactly where God wants us to be? I mean God wants us flaming in our core, He doesn’t just want to change the outward appearance but he wants to get into our core as well. Because once the internal begins to change, that’s when the goodness flows. That’s when God can really move.
So overall enjoy the process. It’s ok if you’re not there yet. The Lord is just working on the inside, working on your heart. You’re exactly where you need to be. Yeah, it may be uncomfortable but Jesus isn’t just going to leave you there.
”And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”
??Philippians? ?1:6? ?NLT??
see! He loves you enough to not just leave you hanging after he unravels you. Take peace in that! Just continue to sit in his presence and seek his face and he will do the rest. Don’t run from the process but instead enjoy it and watch him exceed all your expectations and change your heart from the inside out. That’s a word. Thanks God. And how cool is it that we serve a God who speaks to us through marshmallows. That’s incredible wow:)
- kJ
