Hey guys!! Okay so this is Blog Post #2 and I just wanted to let y’all know what has been going on! But first, I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all of you who have supported me so far! I would not even be able to go on this mission trip without your donations, so again thank you very much.
Alright guys. So I’m going to be real honest with y’all. These past couple of months have been wacko! They have been filled with joy, triumphs, and great times, BUT they have also been filled with doubts, comparisons, and disappointments. There were times when literally my focus was everywhere BUT God. Almost immediately after I got accepted into the World Race, I felt the devil getting ready to attack. I started comparing myself to other people who have done this mission trip and immediately my thoughts were filled with doubts such as “I am not fit enough to do this” or “I’m not spiritually prepared” and my favorite “I couldn’t be more UNQUALIFIED”. Guys. The feeling of being unqualified is a tough one, and I wish I could tell y’all that I immediately started praying when I felt these lies creeping in. Unfortunately, that was just not the case. Not even close. Instead of turning to God, I threw myself a major pity party. I dwelled in the sadness. That was until one day I was absolutely sick of it and knew something had to change, and the change had to be me.
I immediately started praying and Jesus immediately started speaking. Because here is the thing guys, Jesus calls UNQUALIFIED people ALL.THE.TIME. The whole Bible is filled with unqualified people. BUT YALL, we serve a God who turns our unqualifications into qualifications. We serve a God who was the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. We serve a God who can move mountains and cause the demons to tremble. We serve a God who literally gave up his ONE AND ONLY PERFECT son to die on the cross for OUR SINS so we could spend eternity with him.
Jesus knew that I was unqualified, but he called me anyways. Haha guys that gets me so HYPE! Because not by my will but his will be done. Because even though Jesus knew I struggled and knew I was a sinner- he still CHOSE me, he still LOVES me, he still CALLED me and he has definitely not FORGOTTEN about me. Now let me get y’all hype too- because guess what… he also CHOSE you, he also LOVES you and he has also CALLED you and he has not FORGOTTEN about you either. He hears the prayers you cry to him at night. He hears you when you pray for those lost family members. He hears you when you ask him for forgiveness. He hears you when sing praises to his name. He hears it all and he cares. Wow. Guys, if that doesn’t get you excited, I don’t know what will!!
So overall, I’ll leave y’all with this- these past couple of months I have learned that Jesus has chosen me to do this mission trip for a reason. I learned that the pity party has to come to a close and that Bible on my shelf needed to be opened. I learned that despite all the disappointments, Jesus is still good. And I learned that by myself I am unqualified but that WITH Jesus I am QUALIFIED.
I hope everyone has had a great week and thank you for taking the time to read my blog. Be sure to “subscribe” if you want to keep up with my journey.
Y’all are absolutely awesome.
-KJ
“It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualification comes from God.”
??2 Corinthians? ?3:5? ?
