I’m recently got back from Jacó, Costa Rica wrapping up month one debrief with my squad! I cannot believe it’s been a little over a month since I left the states. Saying goodbye was hard. Leaving the comfort of everything I knew in Niceville: the familiar faces I grew up surrounded by, the home town food joints I ate at least once every week (shout out to Doc’s Oyster Bar & Danny’s Fried Chicken, I miss your food and good times), church services, and even the comfort of my own bed. When I left I didn’t let myself feel the weight of leaving, and the difficulty of the see you laters. I shoved all my emotions into a small box, packed my backpack, and said peace out.
Month one showed me that there are things that hurt me that I haven’t overcome yet. God has uncovered wounds that spent a long time trying to bury. This month I was stretched in new ways, and it has been a beautiful process. I am finding my identity in who my Father says I am. I am learning to trust other people with my emotions and letting my community speak life into me. I am listening to the Holy Spirit speak to me in ways I have never heard or felt before.
Month one showed me my God in a new light. He is patient. He is kind. He loves every single thing about me. He wants nothing more than to be closer and closer to me. He rejoices in every step I take, even if I fall down. He walks with me in the hurt, and He carries me when I just can’t take another step. He created me in His image, and I am good in His eyes. He created me complex for a reason. He is a perfect Father. He is also a perfect Mother, Brother, Sister, and Friend. He has shown me that even the best things I hope and dream for, He wants better for me. I simply cannot imagine or grasp how good He is to me, in the past, present and in my future. Month one showed me that He is a good God, but He is a better friend.
Month two is going to be quite the journey, I’m already learning how to let myself feel the emotions and bring them to God. I am opening up my box and taking things piece by piece. If you would like to help I would love to have some extra prayer to support me in this! 🙂
I want to take a moment to say thank you! Thank you to all of you who have supported me on this journey and made it possible for me to be here. I am already seeing the fruit of this journey, and I cannot wait to see more. None of this would have been possible without your willingness to support me! I simply cannot thank you enough!
XOXO!
KIMBO
