Oh sweet friend.
I know it hurts. Believe me, I do. The grief, the betrayal, the heartache, the anxiety, the depression. Whatever this battle is you’re fighting, I know it hurts.
We live in a broken world with broken people where broken things happen. And a lot of the time it hurts. We hurt each other, others hurt us, sometimes we hurt ourselves.
I know it hurts. I know it’s hard. I know you wish it was over.
You’re allowed to feel that pain. In fact I hope you let yourself feel it. I know it may seem easier and less painful to push it deep into your soul never to be unpacked. But let yourself feel this hurt. Let yourself show up for this battle.
I know somedays it feels like the ground has been ripped from right under your feet. Maybe that’s how it feels today. Or maybe you feel like you’re walking a thin tightrope to the other side where healing and wholeness lie.
It’s a slow, steady journey. But I promise with time you’ll make it to that place. That place where you feel whole and like yourself again.
One day it will all come together.
You’ll sing along to your favorite song again after sitting in silence for so long.
You’ll find yourself dancing around the kitchen again while you cook.
You’ll catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and recognize yourself again.
You’ll smile that kind of smile that comes from your eyes, from deep within your soul.
These wounds will heal. I wish I could tell you when or how, but all I know is that they will.
Sure, scars may remain. But, that’s okay. They’re just proof that you showed up for life.
And in time you’ll see them more like beauty marks anyway. Badges of honor that you made it across that tightrope of pain to the place where healing lives.
Oh friend, I know how much it hurts. I know how much you wish this thing called healing was linear, because I do too. Unfortunately it’s not. It has ups and downs and twists and turns that you could never predict.
The good news is that those twists and turns will show you the strength you harbor within you. No, I won’t say they’ll make you stronger. You’re already strong. My guess is you’re way stronger than you ever dreamed possible. You’ll find that out for yourself in time.
The good news is that you’re not alone. Yes, you are fighting your own battle. You are walking your own journey, but you are not alone. Those wounds and scars? We all have them. None of us make it out of here without them.
The good news is that no matter your battle, you are loved, cherished, and treasured. You are ridiculously worthy, ridiculously enough, ridiculously valued. Those facts have nothing to do with anything going on around you and everything to do with what is inside you. Know that to so many, you are so much. Know that to the One, you are everything.
Oh sweet friend, I know you wish it was over now. I know you wish the hurt would subside and the healing would emerge. It will, be patient with yourself. The darkness may seem never ending, but the sun is coming and I promise you will dance in its warmth again.
