Can I just brag for a second on our Father!? Y’all, let me just tell ya. He literally KEEPS me in awe. At the beginning of being accepted and just thinking the Race in general, the financial aspect did not phase me one bit, like literally at all. I was like, “bro, God opened this door for me, why the heck would He not provide for me?” and I really thought I was becoming completely dependent on the Lord. And then, I felt that feeling of complete dependence and complete faith in Him begin to fade. Slowly and slowly. I felt the Devil start creeping in, and my faith and confidence in the Lord just start walking out. Isn’t it funny how all of this works? In all honesty when I was feeling so discouraged and worrisome about raising $16,600, I had absolutely no reason to, but the Devil made it seem like I did. One thing led to another and another and then I just began to think to myself ALL the time, “dude God I know I should be trusting You right now, but I just do not know how I will raise that much money. It’s SO much.” And this is where God starts being funny. I was sitting with a gal last night, once again, sharing with her how absolutely terrified I was about raising that much money, and just felt so clueless and hopeless about it all, honestly. How silly of me right? One month in and I am already having these disheartening thoughts. So, fast forward a bit, to today. I get a text from my dad saying, “A church from Littlefield is donating $xxxx to you!” And my first thought was, “dude, God, w H a T!? You are so stinking faithful!!!!!” And then fast forward a little more that day and I go to start writing this blog about how cool God is and just reflect on it all and I notice MORE people’s donations are popping up in my fundraising. And I am literally just sitting there in awe, thinking about how funny God is. I was over there, the night before, being a doubtful and distrusting daughter of a Father who gives me EVERY reason to have limitless faith and trust in Him. While I’m being a sucky daughter, He’s being the most loving and faithful Father. And He always is and always will be. He continues proving to me how wonderful and miraculous He is. Honestly, not really sure if any of that makes any sense, because I really still can not wrap my head around everything God is doing. But, I just wanted to share this with y’all because, you guys, God is everything. He provides. He is faithful. His love is never ending. He is never going to leave. HE BLOWS ME AWAY. I am on this journey of growing into a person with the utmost faith and trust, and learning about the Love He offers, and it is literally just so cool. Because like even when I slip up, He literally never leaves my side.
