To those who feel called to the Race, but are a little worried…
Me too. And that’s okay.
But before I get into that, here’s how I got here.
I knew about a year ago, when my friend left for World Race Gap Year, that God had something similar in store for me. Man was I scared. I’ll admit, I even ran from it for a while. It wasn’t until about a month and a half ago that I decided to step out in faith for what God was calling me to do.
I knew God wanted me to go. It was something that was on my mind everyday and I couldn’t seem shake it off no matter how hard I tried. It was that little thought that just lingers in the back on your mind. And I didn’t want to go… I was scared and I had other plans for my life. I was about to graduate high school, and I planned on going into 911 communications. And ever since I decided I wanted to go into 911, I had done everything in my power to make sure I was going to get the job.
Until I didn’t. Because of some past mistakes.
Surprisingly though, I wasn’t all that upset.
It wasn’t long after this happened that I was scrolling through Instagram and saw an ad about World Race Semesters. I thought, “Wow God, you really want me to do this.” See, I was planning on doing Gap Year, but I was nervous about being gone for 9 months. And then Semesters popped up and I knew I had to apply. So I did, and after waiting anxiously for the call to let me know if I was accepted or not, I got in. And everything started to make sense. I knew that I didn’t get the job I wanted because God had something greater planned out for me. I had a list going of signs God has given me to do the Race, and this was just one of them.
So, I knew that I was meant to go. But that doesn’t mean that I wasn’t absolutely terrified. Fear was what kept me away from applying sooner, and what encouraged me to make my own life plan. As you can tell, that didn’t work out so well.
So, if you’ve been praying for a sign to do the Race or a mission trip in general, this is it. Go. Step out in faith. As one of my friends always tells me when I tell her I’m scared, “Think with your heart, not your head.” Because your head will keep you from going. It will remind you of all that can go wrong and every fear you’ve ever had. But your heart, that’s the thing that will lead you into God’s love for you and everything He has in store for you.
This post may not be for everyone. But I got this blog about a week ago and ever since have been praying about what my first post should be, and this is what God laid on my heart. So whoever you are, worried about the unknown, my prayer is just that you lay down your worries and take up what God has for you because through Him, it WILL work out. Just remember that it’s okay to be nervous, I am too. But it’s not okay to let that control your life.
Much love,
Jessica
