I always thought my life would be made up of a plethora of perfected routines. I have always known what I was going to do after I spent hours thinking it through. Spontaneous is not a word that I had ever used to define my true self, but God often challenges the boundaries we inflict on our identities. Ever since I was immersed in His love, He has juxtaposed my logical process with His beautiful unpredictability. Authentic freedom was bred from these ambitious endeavors that He placed on my heart. They started off seemingly miniscule. However, His requests often resided outside my comfort zone. One afternoon, I was was walking toward my theater to see a new movie with a few of my friends when an older woman crossed paths with me. I felt a tug on my heartstrings that I was meant to go up and pray for her. My mind raced with thoughts consisting of: heck no Jesus, I love you, but you got the wrong girl. God continues to use me in unique yet impactful ways in order to serve His great kingdom. Despite all the odds that raced through my head, I encouraged myself to walk in the windy yet love-filled path that He laid out for me.
In a time where my peers are immersed in applying for colleges and scholarships, God has called me to travel outside the mundane routine that I thought would define my first year as an “adult.” While logically I see the security in automatically diving into a four year education along with the majority of eighteen year olds, my heart knows that God has big plans for my lil’ hands to work in other realms of the world. I have never thought of myself as a missionary, but that makes me even more sure of the vision God has placed on my heart. I am one hundred percent confident in this wild decision despite my brain finding a million excuses not to go. That is the beauty of God’s will; it may contradict everything you thought you knew about yourself, but the results of chasing after it are clothed in authentic passion and beauty that the life I once thought up could never consist of.
After someone in New Braunfels announced their upcoming Word Race Gap Year adventure my sophomore year, I somehow knew my life would consist of that same bold decision. I slowly started praying about it and telling people I love of the vision God placed on my heart. I am so thankful that God gave me so much time to let his vision settle rather than throwing it on me at the beginning of my senior year. (It’s like He knows how I’m a planner or something…) Trust me, I have had moments of thinking this can not be right, but God always provided me with a scripture, a conversation with a loved one, or words of love that kept His plan for me strong on my heart. I am beyond excited to embrace the unpredicatability that is to come with this journey God has laid out for me. I hope that you are willing to tag along this crazy adventure with me! Prayers are extremely appreciated. Keep an eye out for my next blog post to learn more about my heart and for fundraising opportunities. Don’t forget to subscribe! (Yes, I am basically a Youtuber but with a blog.)
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” Galatians 6:9
