Why do I question this? Why do I have doubts? Why do I feel inadequate or too much? Why would I doubt Gods purpose for my life? IM HUMAN. There have been countless days and nights, where I just wonder… why did God place me in the life I live today. I’ve been slowly learning the answer to this question. Ultimately it’s to further his kingdom, every person I’ve encountered I’ve left some sort of impression on. Now not at say all of them are good impressions they are at best mediocre. But I’m learning to allow God to work through me and show me how to better love others and how to show them Him without even saying anything.
In the countless moments of me asking God “why me” “what am I here for? How will I make an impact?” “I’m nobody” “ I don’t have a voice” “ I’m too young people won’t listen” these are just excuses the enemy uses to drag me down. He tries to shut down any proclamation of The glorious God we serve. He wants me to question my purpose he wants me hiding in seclusion, because that’s when his voice is loudest. It’s on these moments I’m most vulnerable. It’s also when God is right beside me ready to fight off the enemy. If I am listening Gods voice will become louder than all the lies.
This past month I decided to delete Snapchat, I did this with the main intention of spending more time with our sweet Heavenly Father, initially this was the only reason, but a few days in I realized how many lies I was being fed through that platform, the enemy used it to tear me down with out me even realizing it. Now almost 3 weeks in and I can say I have never felt so free, God has showed me so much from being obedient and cutting out chaos and lies social media fed to me. First thing is, I AM ENOUGH! Even when I don’t think I’m impacting someone He is working in that interaction and in turn someone is receiving and learning how Jesus loves people I am His vessel.
Now onto am I too much…
Do I come off too eager, joyful, or friendly? As women we constantly go through the battle of being too much yet not being enough. The enemy is constantly planning his next attack, feeding lies into you with out you even knowing, he uses others to help him get ahead. The key is to be able to identify those lies and believe they’re not true, it’s not who I am it’s a lie from satan. The Bible says that Lucifer was gorgeous absolutely stunning and that was his downfall. He sees us the beautiful image bearers of the God almighty and he’s jealous of our radiance and beauty. He’s the one who tells us we’re too much and that’s why people keep leaving or moving on.
Im too damaged, have too much baggage. Im just too much…. Satan doesn’t always attack us with lies, he sometimes takes something true about us but twists it. Satan says “You have so much history, nobody will love you.” ” Your future spouse will never be able to get over what you did.” God says “Yes you have history, but thats in the past, Im your future” “You are loved by me, you came to me with your baggage and now I’m carrying it for you” God of the universe sent his son to die for us to bear our sins. God knew there were going to be mistakes and regrets, but He loves us so much that he made the ultimate sacrifice.
Just know: You are loved, you are fully seen and known by your creator. He is the lover of your soul, let Him romance you!
PRAISE BE TO GOD I AM FULLY FUNDED!!
Love you all!
Emma
