I strongly believe that feelings comes in waves. Some days are good and other days can be rough. Back in San José I saw an adorable father and daughter moment and I started to get mixed emotions. It is still hard at times to see adorable father and daughter / son moments. I started to think all of the regrets and wishes. I am slowly learning that I need to start focusing more on what is and not on the what if’s or on the wishes. It is definitely hard at times. I had someone ask me when will you stop being angry? That question hit hard. I do not feel like that I am always angry. It definitely comes in waves. Then I narrowed down a form of anger is resentment. Even though I do not agree with some of my dad’s decisions, I am still thankful for him. I am thankful for all our lunch outings, bike rides, gardening, and time with my dad. I strongly believe that I am not always angry. It just creeps up at times along with sadness, happiness, and joy. After I was asked the question I was afraid to feel anger or any other feelings. I was confused and unsure if I was allowed to feel feelings. I have learned it is a good thing to feel emotions and to deal with them as they come. It is never a good thing to box them up! I am learning how to feel them and to deal with them as they come!
Thank you for your prayers,
Dalice Hudson
1) I am thankful for God creating the ocean!
2) I am thankful for the waves!
3) I am thankful for God’s beautiful creation!
