If someone told me a year ago Dalice you are going to share part of your testimony in a Spanish church and at an awakening conference. I would have said no that’s crazy. I can relate myself to Moses in a way. I never imagined speaking in front of crowds of people. Exodus 4:10 Then Moses said to the Lord, “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” Exodus 4:11 So the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Exodus 4:12 “Now therefor, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say.” I am thankful for God making me the way I am. Even though there are times I struggle to get my words out. I am thankful for God always being there and giving me the words to say.
At the awakening I was placed in the story telling track. Monday night we met and went over our game plan. We were told to come up with a story just in case. We were planning on having time for people to share stories. I started to brainstorm different ideas. God started to put something heavy on my heart. I wanted to make a drawing. I strongly believe that there are many forms of storytelling. I enjoy drawing and expressing what I feel. I created an abstract drawing of broken glass. I am learning how to ask God who do you say I am. On my abstract drawing I wrote the words I am. In the broken glass pieces, I wrote what God was saying who I am. I am enough, loved, valued, daughter of the King, and etc.
I asked God what He wanted me to focus on and to share. I am thankful for God giving me the words to say. I shared how I am learning how to process and to heal. I shared a little bit when my dad walked out and he passed away 9 months after he walked out. I shared how last Thursday I was feeling anger and I decided to buy 8 cheap cups to smash. I share 4 of the 8 cups of what the cup represented.
1. Angry at the day my dad left!
2. One major lie that creeps in how can I have an impact on others if I could not have a bigger impact on my dad.
3. Angry at my dad for passing away.
4. My last cup represents allowing my self to be not okay and not to be afraid of feeling my emotions. I want to continue to learn how to heal and to process in a healthy way. I am learning not to box up my feelings and learning how not to avoid my feelings.
I am thankful for God answering my prayers. For the past year and more I have been praying for God to use my brokenness and hurt to show others hope. I am beyond amazed and thankful for God stretching me and using me for His glory! I am thankful for God using us and encouraging others to share what God tells us to do. Here are some words God gave them to tell me.
Obedient
Boldness
Have an impact on others.
While sharing my story God allowed someone to feel what I was feeling.
God is proud of me for sharing, even though at times you feel like that your voice does not matter and when you feel like that you do not get your point across you do! I am thankful for my time at the awakening!
I am thankful for God using me and pouring into me. I enjoyed worship and all of the messages that we had. Thank you for your prayers!
Dalice
