We are currently in month three in the beautiful country, Kazakhstan – owned by Russia and Europe. The people, food, and scenery is breathtaking. It is fall here so I haved loved seeing the different stages of the trees and the snow covered mountain tops . Some of them almost look fake, that is how pretty it is. Coming from Florida it is completely different and I’m enjoying every minute of my time here.
Nothing has been the same for long periods of time due to how much we are moving. The locations, people, weather, language, and culture are constantly changing. One thing that stood out to me, with all of these constant changes is that God will not change. He is the same in America as he was in China and now in Kazakhstan. Seeing him work in other countries blows my mind. My relationship with God continues to get deeper each day and I am learning so much. God is the father that shows up to every football game to cheer for their child, he is there to wipe every tear from your face before it runs off your face, and he always picks you first.
In this world, it is harder to trust because of change. A lot of brokeness comes from changes that happened by choice or situational. Hearts are hardened and people start living behind closed doors. Which leads for grudges, walls, and a mixed up definition of forgiveness. Forgivness is something I personally had a hard time with, but I realized it wasn’t the forgiveness that I was struggling with it was with TRUSTING God actually forgave me. Until I understood that, my actions and the word of God didn’t match up and I wasn’t living a life that I was meant to live. God wants the best for you, he doesn’t want to see you struggle by yourself. He puts people in your life for that reason but if you believe your disqualified,you will struggle with yourself. Often we will miss out what God has right in front of you.
Romans 5:19 For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one the many will be made righteous. Earth was never perfect and still has a lot of sin in it. We are not defined or attached to our sin, from the moment we gave it to God it wasn’t ours anymore. The whole point of Jesus dying was for our sins, not to die and us suffer from our sins. I realized with my struggles that I wasn’t allowing God to be God, but once you do you literally feel the weight lift up and get a new attitude on life.
I want to close in a prayer, Dear God I want to thank you for all the healing in my life. I want to thank you for being you, and sticking to your word. I pray for those who are struggling with forgiveness, they arent alone. I pray they see the people you put in their life for that reason. Their hearts will open up again and they can feel the chains being removed from their sin. I pray they feel your comfort and peace thru the hard times and the good times. Amen
* Picture taken by my squadmate Laura 🙂
