YOUR KINGDOM COME, YOUR WILL BE DONE.
I have been learning more and more of what this looks like and I am so thankful. Aside from contentment in which I am absolutely still learning, this is one of the most sobering lessons I have had to learn. I think it goes hand in hand with contentment, learning to have joy and be at peace with where with Jesus has called me and what He has called me to do.
This is going to sound really silly, but sometimes Jesus makes me laugh at how simple, yet so complex He can be. I know it goes so much deeper than this, but this is how Jesus has revealed Himself to me this week: I have recently been throwing some pity parties because I have had a cloudy (but yet sunny!!!) few weeks. To be completely transparent with you, which I promised I would, for the last six months I have been dating a guy and as of a few weeks ago, we are no longer purusing that. I am truthfully learning to find joy in singleness and what a blessing it is, how much I can learn, and all that season can bring- I have just been a little sad.
In light of that, I have been watching a TV show, When Calls the Heart. If you have never heard of it, it is a Hallmark series. If you know me, you know there are few things I love more than Hallmark movies, so what could be better? All my girls who have been through a break up, WHAT IS BETTER HOPE FOR THE FUTURE THAN HALLMARK????
Well, I was expectant because there is A L W A Y S a good and happy ending in Hallmark, right??? WRONG. This time, when I was reeallllyyyy looking for a happy ending, (!!!!DISCLAIMER!!!!) my favorite character died. DIED. No more happy for this couple because her guy DIED. I was faced with the reality that even when my world is not-so fluffy and I seek something else, OF THIS WORLD & expect it to be fluffy, I will always be disappointment. Anytime I seek things of this world and expect it to give me anything in return and be enough to fulfill me, I will be let down. Although this is random and Jesus showed me this while I was ugly-crying in the bathroom at Calhoun before class, I think it is so important.
The true cry of my heart throughout the last few weeks has honestly been, “Jesus, give me new lens to see from. I know I am seeing so up-close and such a small circle, but help me to see the greater picture.” I told you, such a silly example, but sometimes I just need Him to dumb things down for me and show me the most obvious, so clearly. I want to share my favorite verse with you and I hope it encourages you: “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.” Philippians 4:11-12
Whatever season you are in, I am praying for YOU. I am hopeful that you would find JOY in the smallest of things, enjoy the rain, and continue to remember how FAITHFUL Jesus is. I am hopeful that you would seek peace and contentment in Jesus alone, and not in the things of this world because you & I both know, you can’t even find it in a Hallmark movie.
P.S. A HUGE PRAISE REPORT. I AM 49.57% (hahaha, so close) FUNDED. 50%, PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! I am halfway there!!!!! I am stopping, pausing, and praising for this amount, but I still have $8,300 to go!!! Also, as of today, I am 150 days away from training camp. This adventure is getting closer and closer, friends. Please continue to be in prayer for myself, my squad, and the people we are going to encounter throughout months 1-9. I am so thankful for all of you, and cannot wait to walk the journey and share with you! Happy Friday!
