So I have started and finished writing my blog for this month, THIS blog, FOUR times in the last 3 days. I basically have been slapped across the face and have learned that none of what I had typed was worth being read and Jesus did not want me to share that with you. Soooooo, here we are.
When writing the previous four blogs, I have tried to “set myself up for success.” In saying that, I have put on worship music, pulled out my bible, and tried to remember the scripture I have read this week to incorporate it into this months blog. As you can see, that was a no-go and has not been as successful as I anticipated; however, I think that was exactly what Jesus was trying to show me. I do not always have to “set myself up for success,” but instead, when I show up, He does too. I say this, because truth is, I am sitting beside the Christmas tree, in my pajamas, no makeup, and I am watching One Tree Hill while writing this.
Juuuusstttt before this, I had dinner with one of my very favorite people, Cole Strankman. We have dinner every Tuesday night, but tonight was different. Ironically, instead of being in a more formal setting such as a restaurant, we were in our pajamas, on the couch, and eating take-out from Tazikis. I think there is beauty in getting real, sitting down, and having vulnerable conversations.
As we talked through life and the messy, yet beautiful season we are in, we were both reminded that sometimes we get caught up in making our quiet time a priority, and although that is necessary, it can sometimes outshine our true intentions of meeting with Him. Instead of meeting with Jesus because we long to know more about Him, we meet with Him in order to check it off our list for the day. To get real and to be honest with you, I have had to recently pray for a desire to spend time with Jesus. I know this sounds so horrible, but it has not been a priority on my list, and I did it out of spite and “just to do it.” Did I get anything out of it? No, not what I could if I really leaned in and let Jesus do a work in me.
In saying all of these things, meet Jesus where you are and He will show up. When Cole and I met tonight, we physically looked like a mess, and we are both emotionally as well as spiritually a mess, per usual. BUT, through that, Jesus reminded me, He reminded Cole, and He is reminding YOU, that when you JUST. SHOW. UP., He will meet you.
