Joyous news! This week has been the best week of my trip so far. I know I know. I can only imagine what you’re thinking. “You’ve been in Leyte for 6 weeks & are just now having a good week.” Well the answer is yes.
The last month & a half, I’ve struggled with being away from my comfort, I’ve struggled with community, ministry, basically anything I could find to upset/annoy me.
For weeks I’ve had a few people verbally tell me, send me inspirational quotes, or write me notes about how they know a breakthrough is coming for me, to just keep pushing, & to keep persevering. I shrugged it off. I was tired of hearing a breakthrough was coming when I didn’t want one, I didn’t want to let myself have a good day. It’s so much easier to sit in my own head space & have a bad attitude about anything & everything. Well, let me tell you that the breakthrough HAPPENED! I tell you this so those of you back home can rejoice alongside me.
Last week my frustration had overtaken me & in the midst of it all the only thing my soul craved was a worship night. I had talked to Courtney (my leader) about my vision for it. I just wanted to sing praises with my team. As the night went on some girls trickled out, hours in there was myself & 2 other girls. We had no agenda other than praising the King & His goodness.
I feel renewed & refreshed. I want to sit down & read my bible. I want to process & dive deeper into what Jesus is saying. I have found myself craving the presence of my team, I’ve found myself reaching out to girls who I normally wouldn’t give the time of day to (baby steps though). I have found myself craving community in different ways at various times.
It’s hard for me to really put into words the change I feel other than telling you it’s Jesus. There’s just no other explanation for it. I haven’t felt this way spiritually in a hot minute. Going into this trip, I had asked the Lord to show me His goodness.
He answered. In His timing. In His way.
