Hello all,
I started writing these sweet words while I was worshiping into the New Year with a few others from the squad. It took me a few days, into Cambodia, to finish because God had more He wanted to show me.
I have been doing the Bible Recap Podcast, which takes you through the Bible in chronological order. Something that has been sticking out to me is how God has so many names. He did this for a reason, right? He tell us His name in so many ways, so that maybe someday our human mind can wrap itself around a fraction of the infinite things we do get to know about God.
He said He IS comfort. That doesn’t mean He’s comforting me just when the relationship I thought was going to be the final one, for the second time, ended. That doesn’t mean just while you’re fighting for your identity, the real one. That doesn’t just mean when you’re homesick and can’t stop the tears, even while you’re trying to choke down the instant coffee to spare yourself the headache. He is comfort, in any form you need Him to be.
While laying on the floor on New Year’s Eve, I asked God to speak to me in the silence of everyone meditating on the sweet music of Him.
I am comfort.
Stop asking for comfort in the morning, when I’m right here.
Be content. Be content in Me.
Find comfort in Me, my Daughter.
I want you. I desire you. I’m right here.
All the comfort you need.
In me, your comfort, you will be content.
I’ve never done this before. Choose to worship God, as a way of celebrating. It was the most beautiful thing. After nearly two weeks of begging, in prayer, for Him to help me to just be comfortable in Asia, He revealed His heart behind my “discomfort”. I wanted to physically be comfortable. I wanted a home, with a kitchen. I wanted good coffee. I wanted to be able to spend the holidays the same way I would have if I was home. I selfishly wanted all the things that I find comfort in, in America.
He simply wanted me to trust that He is comfort. That I can find comfort in Him physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. He is all the comfort that I need, and did what He has to do to help me lean into Him for that.
I have been in Cambodia for two days now and I am in awe of the sweetness of the Lord. The first day getting here was a sweet day between Him and I. I felt like I spent the entire day with Him. I adored all the things that I was noticing that brought “comfort to my soul”. It was one thing after another. I started calling them winks from the Lord, because after all, He is romancing all of us.
I am comfortable here is Cambodia, not because I have all that my human flesh wants. But because I am trusting that He is who He says He is. My team and I are ATL this month. Which means we don’t have a specific host or mission base this month. We “Ask The Lord” where and what He has for us, and we do that. I am excited for what He has for my team and I, as we allow ourselves to be interruptible while living in Cambodia.
Because They Haven’t Heard,
Calla Rae
