Hi all,
The entire day was silent. If I talked to someone, it was as if my voice wasn’t heard at all. In the van, while trying to talk to people – nothing. Some people would notice and joke around that maybe some people can’t hear my pitch, I didn’t think it was funny. During church, unheard. In the van on the way to the mall, silent. At the mall, unheard. Even through messages, no one was responding (although the time change may had a lot to do with that). Dinner, silence. Team time, silent, and when I did try to talk, I was talked over as if I wasn’t even talking in the first place. It was as if my surroundings were so loud, that they were silent.
I was talking to God throughout the day, as I know he heard me and he was listening. I wanted to know why I was feeling the way that I was. What did he want me to get out of this?
As soon as team time ended, I felt as if a cloud had moved from overtop of my head. The day was officially over, and I had nothing else that I had to do. Overwhelmed, I started journaling, writing down everything I felt from the day. All the questions I had, all the emotions I felt, all the things I wanted to say and who I wanted to say it too.
A squad mate came into the living room, where I was sitting in. He started asking me questions, trying to talk to me. The entire day I wanted this, but now I want to just be alone and journal, and someone wants to talk to me? In that moment I thought, what if he felt the same way the entire day as well? So I stopped journaling and started talking. I listened to all that he desired to talk about and then I told him about my entire day and all the things I was feeling.
Thankfully, instead of hearing “huh”, he simply started helping me process the day. We were getting no where, when randomly I said “you need to be the ears for someone, even if you aren’t being heard”. In that moment, we both looked at each other, wide eyed, then started laughing so hard. If felt so good to laugh, and for someone to hear my laugh.
My day of silence turned into one of my most beautiful days from this month. I spent so much time talking and relying on God, to simply just give me wisdom as to why I wasn’t being heard. He taught me so much through that.
- God loves to be the one that we run to when we have questions or even when we simply just need to talk.
- Be the ears, even if you are not being heard. Sometimes God just needs us to listen to his children, rather than trying to fix it.
- He will always show you the way for what you’re going through. He is an intentional God, and it’s all already planned out.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post. I have been working on it for a few days now, as I wanted to protect my friend’s side of the story. And I was struggling with showing in a blog post how hard and beautiful this day was.
Because They Haven’t Heard,
Calla Rae
