I just feel so called to…
I know that “called” is such a christian buzz word right now, and I get really annoyed when people just throw it out because they need an excuse for wanting to do something that others don’t see as “normal”, because of that I have spent years trying to fill this yearning I’ve had with other things. But here it is I have to say it because there is honestly no other word I can use to describe the way I feel, I am CALLED to missions. I went on my first missions to trip to Portland OR when I was in the 7th grade, we slept on the floor of a church and spent the week serving/feeding the homeless community. I enjoyed myself but to be honest with you my favorite part was messing around with my friends in downtown Portland. Until the end when we went to the warehouse where they pack the boxes for Doctors Without Borders, they had a exhibit where each room was made to make you feel like you were in a different country. For example they had one room where there was trash all over the floor that made you feel like you were in a dump in Mexico, or the heater was on high and there was tents everywhere like a AIDS camp in Africa. By the time we got to the end I was in tears, as a 12 year old I didn’t know how to process my emotions or the fact I felt like I should be there with the people I was watching on the screen. Since then I have felt called to international missions, which is a hard thing to navigate as a teen. While my friends were going on college visits and trying to decide if they should join a sorority or not, I was googling the needs of different countries and how I can meet those needs. I made a deal with myself that if I did a year long trip my first year out of high school I would get missions off my mind then go to college like my friends and major in something that would allow me to help people everyday in America. Well I spent my freshman year in Guatemala and it was one of the hardest but best years of my life, I came back and went to college, and now 3 years later I have had 3 different majors and have dropped out of 3 different schools. Missions is not something that I can just shake off or grow out of, I’m not 100% sure what the rest of my life will look like but I know God has the perfect plan, and He is calling me to missions.
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