So if anyone didn’t know I launched with my team at 4 A.M wholeheartedly and boldly on Monday morning. If you asked me about anything over the past few months it was all about me preparing to embark on the trip of a life time. But if you didn’t know I have been very sick these past two weeks. Regardless though, I went to training camp Thursday. Training camp was hard, but so so good. We learned a lot about ourselves and the ways God can use us out on the field. We also all met our teams that we will be living with the next few months!! Let me tell you, I got super blessed with my team and team leaders. On the second day of camp, my health started to slowly get worse, so my team leader and adviser took me to a local urgent care. At the time the doctor told me that the medication I had been taking for the medical issue I had before camp had weakened my immune system very bad and I had a really bad cold. Which at the time was really good news considering I was leaving the country in 3 days. As training camp started winding down so did my health. I slowly got worse and worse each day.
Training camp rocked my world. I learned things about myself that I didn’t know. I talked to God in ways I haven’t before and got a new perspective on ways to let Him live though me. But what stuck out to me the most at training camp was community. Let me tell you, God put me exactly where I needed to be. My team, my new family for the next three months literally carried me through camp and my first two travel days. From putting up with my cough and runny nose to carry my bags through the airport because I was physically too weak to being my prayer warriors and shoulders to cry on because let me tell you it gets emotional not being able to do things you normally can. From not complaining about having to wait on me in the bathroom to letting me be the one to sit even though you all were so exhausted. You all literally are the best.
So I am sure everyone is wondering what this means. It means I made it all the way to London and then I had to come home. I was physically too sick to continue. I pushed myself to the limits trying to keep up with everything. I have now been to the doctor and I am very sick. However this does not mean that I am finished. My body needs to heal and rest. It absolutely tears my heart apart not being able to go because my heart is still 100% into this mission but I know my body and I know I needed to be treated. God is a good God and I have learned a lot about what He has planned for me over the past few days. Even though my heart is hurting from not being there, I know that this is all about of His plan. As of now I am uncertain if I will be able to continue on after I am healed but my prayer is to just be where He needs me.
To my team: I know the decision I made was just as hard on you all as it was on me. You all will forever be my family, no matter if I can return or not. You all have so much power behind you and I can’t wait to be updated on how much you all accomplish. I want to thank you all for being so good to be for the short amount of time I have known you all. I want to encourage each of you to be bold during this time, do the things you’re scared of, remember on the hard days God is still going to provide and to listen to His voice even when it gets hard. If you learned anything from me over the past few days I hope its that even when its hard, like super hard to still find the joy in the moment to still find him in the chaos. I hope you all continue to grow closer to each other( if that is possible) and learn from each other because I have learned a lot from each of you. I love you all and I will pray for each of you daily. I hope to see you all soon but if not just remember its His plan.
Thank you for reading my blog post and I will update you all when I am feeling better!!!! This is a picture of my team bracelet, which has been a good reminder for me that I am still apart of this. 
