The past few days I’ve been rocked by homesickness and comparison and it’s been tough. Struggling with not being home and not feeling like I’m good enough to be here. I sat with the Lord for a long time today, several times today and as scary as it is to pour my heart out on the internet, I promised myself to always be real so I want to share some things He’s been reminding me of. Things I know to be true and things that I simply forget in the craziness of life.
Here’s the truth.
- I was created on purpose and I am love completely loved. His love for others does not lessen His love for me.
- I can only effectively love others out of an overflow of His love for me.
- He knows my past and He died to redeem it. I do not have to live in regret and everyday is a chance to live and love more like Jesus.
- I am where I’m supposed to be.
- I am a precious, beloved daughter of the King. What I have to offer is enough – in fact it’s valuable.
- I cannot do everything well, that’s the beauty in community. We need each other.
- Friendship is worth fighting for. I can forgive over and over because I am forgiven over and over.
- He doesn’t ask us to give up something without giving us something better. He knows what we need.
- I cannot grab on to something new while holding onto the past.
You just read my journal from today and while it’s all good and beautiful reminders, the enemy still is trying to use it. The enemy wants me to believe that I’m weak for needing to be reminded of those truths or that I’m not a “good christian” for needing that reminder.
That is not truth.
Truth is beautiful verses like in Psalm 84. Verses that tell me that my strength is in Him, that the Valleys of Weeping will become refreshing springs, and tell me that the Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
So there’s my heart. It’s a little messy but it’s beautiful because it’s in the hands of my Beautiful Savior.
If you’re reading this – all of these things are true for you too and I hope you can find peace in them.
all my love
abby 🙂
