I must say this has been a full year. Full of adventure. Full of amazing community. Full of growth. Full of love and laughter. Full of being confused on what side of the road we drive on.
As many of you know I am now in my last week of the world race. I would like to share with you some of the things this race has taught me. Starting out this journey I had no idea who I was or why I was even created. Through my team, community, and being poured into, I have learned a lot about myself and my identity.
This race has taught me how to have a solid routine with the Lord, and to always put him first above all else.
This race has taught me how to embrace any uncomfortable or awkward situation.
This race has taught me how to be so dependent on the Lord and trust that He will protect me even when I was ten hours away from my whole sqaud in Myanmar, and I’m genuinely terrified something terrible is going to happen.
This race has taught me how to be vunerable with those around me and to ask hard questions to push others into vunerablilty.
This race has taught me how to receive feedback in a way that I know my team isn’t trying to hurt me, but to call me higher into who the Lord wants me to be.
This race has taught me how to find joy in every moment in the midst of fear and worry.
This race has taught me how to live in the moment and not to worry about what tomorrow brings because honestly you’re not even promised tomorrow.
This race has taught me how to love myself the way the Lord loves me and know that I am made to perfection.
This race has taught me how to go with the flow and not need a plan for everything and to not get upset when things don’t go perfect. Which is also good because when things go perfect and smooth there’s rarely a funny story that comes out of it.
This race has taught me how to love each individual person the way the Lord loves them and to see then the way the Lord sees them.
This race has taught me how to handle conflict the proper way and not leave until it’s solved.
This race has taught me self awareness to the max, and how to be able to admit when I am wrong to those around me, and how
to admit to my Father when I’m struggling and I can’t do anything except call out to Him.
This race has taught me how to be aware of my anger and to chose how to handle it and know that being angry doesn’t solve anything, and I am now able to brush it off or to solve it in the moment instead of holding on to it.
This race has taught me to give my fears up to the Lord and know that He will take care of them because He wants to and I don’t need to.
This race has taught me how to enter and end seasons well.
This race has taught me how to be enthusiastic, and to actually embrace the things that I love and to not worry about what others think about it.
This race has taught me to trust in the Lords promises and know that his promises carry into the eternity.
I’m not going to lie this race has been hard. I didn’t know what it was like to have anxiety or depression until I came on the race. I have had to walk through many many hard things. I have driven myself crazy at times, but the important thing is what the Lord has taught me through this year. Would I go back and change anything about this race? The answer would be a definite no. This race has shaped me to be who I am right now. Yes it’s been hard and honestly the journey of life is hard, but man when you have Jesus, it makes life worth living.
This race has been the launching pad for the rest of my life, and I’m ready for what life will throw at me. Bring it on world.
