so when it comes to my blogs, all of them have a format and are super organized and have a specific point and that is one thing that makes me comfortable and i feel like God is telling me to step out of my comfort and to just start writing so bare with me most of this probably wont make sense to you because i can barely make sense of it myself soo uhhh… yeah
during the first month i didn’t really learn much and didn’t have any crazy revelations and so during our first month debrief i asked God to challenge me and help me to actually learn something and so he has been teaching me so many crazy things this past month and the struggle that I’ve been having with that is that i know i’m learning so much but i don’t know what i am learning because i don’t know how to process things and there’s is so many ways to process things and so many ways to hear the Lord and i don’t know what to do with that because i have always depended on other people to tell me who i am and i feel like i need reassurance for that because i’m so new to this and i feel like i’m doing it wrong because God isn’t yelling it in my face i actually have to press in and really ask so its been hard y’all.
but today has been so fruitful and today we were supposed to ask the Lord what truth we need to be told and the word i got was “your voice is worthy of sharing”
and i dunno about you but that hit me pretty hard because some of the lies that i have been believing is that i’m not good enough to speak up, my words don’t matter or the people around me will always have better things to say so why bother? or when it comes to vulnerability and believing that my teammates don’t care and that they aren’t going to respond the way i feel like they need to respond.. but again all of those are lies and knowing and understanding that my words do matter first off and that if God gives me a word to give to someone else why would i keep that to myself? what good does that do? its meant for someone else and how can i be selfish enough to keep a truth like what away from someone and not impacting their life like God is telling me to? also being able to step out in boldness and not caring what other people think is a beautiful thing. Today is the first day that i gave up myself and took the time to speak what God was telling me… i don’t do that and because i did that today and i got over that little wall i feel like i can conquer the world and i can say everything that comes to my mind because I have a voice and my voice is so worth it.
so to take away from this blog is that my mind is a mess most of the time but i do know the truths about myself. it may be super hard sometimes but who says following Jesus is easy? its not but just take it one step at a time.
this is the first real thing i have learned and its to share your voice.
what are ways that you can speak up and speak life into people?
