In Nicaragua the day started with 5 am prayer in the pavilion outside. It was dark and you had to watch for snakes or scorpions while walking to the pavilion from the dorms. We all sat there as a squad (all 26 of us) in the dark from 5 am to 6 am praying in silence. Sometimes people would walk around or write or listen to music or pet a dog (whatever way you connected to God in prayer looked like). By 6 am the sun was starting to pop up over the mountainside. We all got to experience sunrise with God and with each other every day.
From 6 am to 7 am we had bible reading and personal time. Where I chose to sit on this big rock under a tree with a view of the open field at the farm.
Every other night we did book study with the staff at the farm. They had us read a book called Spiritual Slavery to Sonship. The book recked all of our lives in such a beautiful way. The staff at REAP told us to look at the Race in a different perspective. To look at in a way of when we are on the Race to grow and fill ourselves while we serve but when we go home that that is our mission field. To learn that our intimacy with Christ is first to be able to serve.
The book was about how we all have an orphan mindset and even an orphan spirit because we are all separated from God and then we can be introduced to the spirit of sonship with God. We get to choose if we want the spirit of sonship and be free or we can choose to have the orphan spirit and be in slavery. The orphan spirit can take many different forms but it’s basically anything outside of sonship or daughtership with God. Anything that fills it, like the basic things like sex, drugs, religion, etc. but it can also look like trying to earn God’s approval, or trying to be perfect or good enough for God to except you because of different roots in your life that was planted while you are young. Normally it’s from an experience with our parental figures while we were young, feeling like we have to prove something or feeling not good enough.
For me it wasn’t really an experience with my parents that the root of rejection and feeling like I have to prove something came from. It was an experience with friends who were just joking around when I was pretty young but it actually effected me more than I thought. I took that perception on what I thought I needed to do with the Lord because that is what I thought I had to do all my life with most relationships. I felt like I had to prove and earn a place in God’s family subconsciously. It was keeping me from fully walking as a daughter of God and being able to receive my inheritance that God freely gives us because we are heirs to God and co-heirs to Christ.
What is holding you back from fully embracing the sonship or daughtership of God? What is a orphan spirit or mindset that Satan has planted in your life that is keeping you from embracing Father Gods embrace in an intimate way? What is keeping you from freedom?
