I’m in Armenia as I write this.
Life is beautiful. God is good. SO GOOD. I have found in life that I can typically say this without any hesitation. Yet, things do get hard. Challenges come. You just push through right? That’s what I have learned how to do over these past years. Life pushes, I push harder. Yet, I’m learning something new.
This year, just wow… I truly can’t explain what this year has been for me. I don’t know if I will ever be able to. I have had one of the most epic years of my life. It is all because of Christ. He gives that! I have also had a year were I found things out about myself that I didn’t know were there haha. I have found myself frustrated with my emotions, overthinking in my head, and so many other feelings I didn’t truly realize existed. Holy Spirit has opened my eyes to so much in my life. THANKFUL. Haha. That’s the word. Truly, I am. It’s still challenging and Holy Spirit is still doing a work in me. Whatever it is, it will play into the remainder of my days. Yeah, I would have really never experienced these things without signing up for the World Race. He is the potter, I am the clay. Simple as that. Just use me GOD haha! Allow yourself to be put into a spot were He can reveal things to you and mold something new out of you.
Listen. I have been faced with asking myself this question at points throughout these past months. Is this worth it. Is it worth living for Christ? I mean to truly LIVE FOR CHRIST? I really don’t think this is a bad thing to ask yourself. If you are asking yourself this, I really believe you are doing it “right”. It’s not easy! 2 Timothy 3:12, “In FACT, all those who want to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted.” Persecution from people, and even from our own mind and flesh. Crazy right!? Joy is there. Sorrow is there. Haha. What I am saying is Jesus is enough. More than enough. You might pray for healing. You get it maybe you don’t. You might share the gospel. They want Jesus or hey, maybe they don’t. The truth is this: Christ is enough. More than enough. I AM SINNER and yes Jesus has saved me. I will give my life for Him. I want more and more to be crazy in love with Jesus. I want to love prayer. I want to LOVE people. Pray that God gives me that please! Let me GO DEEPER. I have realized this: it’s a CHOICE. If I want to love prayer, I will put myself in the position to do so. To get up in the morning whether I am “feeling” it or not. To set reminders to pray throughout the day. Whatever it may be. That way it becomes natural and it turns into a true relationship. This applies with everything. That’s what marriage is all about right? Not sure exactly on the whole marriage thing just yet but, I hear stories at least haha. You have to choose each day to love that person after so many years? That infatuation wears off yeah? It’s the same thing with Jesus. I’ve been with my Jesus here for almost 20 years now. What a ride! That’s some love haha! Jesus says, “Abide in me. JUST BE WITH ME.” Okay Jesus, I’m still in haha. Let’s GET IT
