One of my squad mates spoke words over another mate of mine the other day and the image as he spoke was so beautiful and spoke even deeper to me about what breaking looks like.
He said something along the lines of “you are broken like a clay pot, but the Lord seals it back together with gold so the gold shines through the cracks and makes it even more beautiful than it was before.”
This month has been a full month of connecting certain dots in my life and discovering new ones to eventually connect in this great picture of life.
I’ve seen my brokenness this month more so than last, I’ve seen my selfishness, I’ve seen my pride, I’ve seen the weights I try to carry.
The Lord told me at the beginning of the race Matt 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I thought I gave him my weight. I thought I let go of my yokes and released my shoulders but I didn’t quite.
Last night we had worship as a squad and my friend Maggie said to imagine yourself in a garden with God playing hide and seek and every time you find Him there’s a gift waiting for you. She said ask Him to reveal to you what each gift is.
So the second gift He gave me was a key. I didn’t know what it was for until I saw the shackles around my ankles unlocking as my feet were helped out. I stood there not knowing what to do. I wasn’t used to walking with such a lightness that I couldn’t even move.
It reminded me of when I was younger and used to catch little animals like crawdads or chipmunks or little moles. When my brothers and I would release them back into the wild, the little guys would just stand there for a minute completely free, but completely paralyzed.
When I stand paralyzed to move, the Lord extends his hand with grace, enthusiasm and encouragement to nudge me on to walk. To walk with Him hand in hand until we run and skip and dance.
As all this was playing out, my team mate Bre reached over and put her hand on my ankle and prayed. What beauty what beauty.
Ecuador has been good, the Lord is good, we’re shaking and breaking shackles.
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