Back in Cambodia, I told my team that by the time we got to Costa Rica, I wanted to sing in front of everyone.
The morning of April 11th, I did just that. I sang and hated every second of it.
A little backstory: a couple of weeks ago, Jesus told me I needed to stop saying no to him. Since then, I’ve been trying to say yes to everything (including singing in front of everyone).
Nothing was working during practice. The mics didn’t work. I couldn’t figure out when to start the song. I felt that everything was going wrong and I was getting incredibly nervous. I didn’t want to do it anymore, I hated being up there. I hated being on stage, I hated holding a mic. I so desperately wanted to be anywhere else but on that stage.
Why was I so nervous? I had lived with these people for 7 months and all I was doing was praising Jesus.
We sang. Everyone said it was fine and good, but I WAS NOT FINE AND GOOD. I sobbed. I felt so defeated. I felt that I just threw myself in the dirt and it made no sense why I felt that way.
I asked Jesus why I felt so defeated and instead of giving me an answer, He gave me peace. He told me that I just need to keep saying yes. He reminded me about Paul and all that he went through because of his ‘yes’ and he ended up bringing thousands of people to Christ. Jesus also reminded me about himself. He told me that if He said no at any point in His life then There would be no forgiveness of sin. Yikes, He is so right.
I wasn’t defeated, that was the devil trying to get to me. Jesus was so proud of me for being obedient and saying yes.
Good things come when we go out of our comfort zones.
Good things come when we say yes to Jesus. All of His promises to us are yes and amen, so why not make those same promises to Him!
