I’ve been back in America for about two weeks. And to be honest, more times than not, I’ve wished I was still on the race. Dont get me wrong, I’ve absolutely LOVED getting to see friends and family, having a hot shower that comes out of the wall at a normal height, a soft bed without bed bugs, etc. But I’ve felt like there’s something missing. When I was on the race, I felt filled, loved, purposeful, and a valued part of a group of people. And I think the sad truth is I haven’t felt that, save for a few times, in the past two weeks. Because of that, I’ve wanted to be back on the race and even day dreamed about what it was like. Every time this would happen I would remember my words to X Squad, “It’s better that I leave. You’re going to step into things that you wouldn’t if I was still with you. It’s time to own your race.” Shoot! That truth bomb though! I had to take my own advice.
But how was this better for me? I feel like I’ve taken a dozen steps backwards since being off the race. What ‘more’ could He have for me than what I experienced on the race? And how do I step into that right here and right now?
On the race there were opportunities every day to use my gifting and to step into ‘the more’ in a community of people who were interested in the same thing. Great Scott! That’s what I’ve been missing! Not the race! The ‘more’ is heaven on earth; knowing and experiencing Yahweh’s love and encouraging others to do the same. I want that again! I want that everyday! I want to pull heaven down everyday and spread it wherever I go! I’m NOT going to let my circumstances control if that happens or not! I’m going to purposefully choose it!
And that’s a great segway into my next life update. Since my heart’s desire is to live like Christ and to invite others into that same space, I believe He is leading me abroad for a few more months. There’s a leadership academy located in Mijas, Spain called G42. It’s a nine month discipleship program where you learn to live a kingdom life and invite others into the same way of living. That’s my passion! That’s how I want to live and how I want to see others live as well. And that’s what I’ve been missing, not necessarily the race, but a kingdom lifestyle.
I’m confident that Yahweh is leading me to G42 in March of this year. There are a lot of unknowns that I’m choosing to trust Him for. Here’s what I know, He loves me and He wants me to live in abundance and lead others into that as well. He wants to accomplish that through this discipleship program in Spain. I’m trusting that if I choose to go where He’s leading that He’ll provide everything I need. I’ll need another $10,500 in order to go. And I’m so confident He’s called me to this that I’m thanking Him for the money that’s going to come in!
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