Our flesh desires to see the supernatural move in such a way that it blows our mind. Why? I don’t know exactly. Maybe we love the fact that we get a glimpse of the “unknown” which gives us hope for eternal life. If this is the case, that means there is an infinite God worthy enough to serve the rest of our life that is in control of eternity.
There were times where I doubted if there was a God, and if there was, the in-depth thought of it mind boggled me. My mind couldn’t fathom eternity and the fact God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. The thought of, “well who created God?!” always seemed to give me a headache. Then once God started answering my prayers in Jesus name and showing me things in the supernatural, it made me really want to seek and know more about Him and this eternal life. “When I die, where am I spending the rest of eternity?” And if this Jesus Christ stuff is really real, I need to devote my life to this. So I sought Him more and more day by day.
That more is where I stand right now. I want more of Him. If He is a God that promises if we seek Him we will find Him, and a God of no limitations, then just how much can I get of His glory and goodness? And isn’t this worthy enough to praise Him with every breath in my lungs? Who wouldn’t want to be in a relationship with the God that created not only them but the heavens and the earth? The thought of that makes me feel so loved and wanted. Once you get a grasp of this, it will be your greatest desire to know Jesus Christ. To worship and be in communion with the Father.
I didn’t have any expectations going into the Race but for God just to blow my mind. I didn’t know how or what it would look like, but that’s what I EXPECTED. And I knew from past experiences that He always exceeded my expectations. I heard about all of the miracles that were performed by Jesus through past racers such as; praying for the blind and them regaining their eye sight, demon deliverance, and healing the sick. If I had to be honest, that’s what I most desired to see. But God had planned otherwise.
Over the last month, my desire for God has grown tremendously. My prayers were for Him to increase my desires for Him with no limitations. I knew what I was praying but I didn’t expect for Him to answer it in such a way where I literally hunger for Him. The scripture that paints this picture is Psalms 63:1 when David (of course the man God called a man after His own heart) said:
“O God, You are my God.
Earnestly I seek you.
My soul thirst for you;
My flesh longs for you
In this parched and weary land
Where this no water.”
Imagine your desire for God dwelling so much that your whole being and soul literally hungers for Him. It’s a sensation and lifestyle that I pray amongst my family and friends every morning. I literally cry for God to move in such a way in their lives because it’s life changing. It changes the way you look at life. Along with this desire He gave me for Him, He also gave me a different lens to view life. A wide angled lens of life. I see Him in everything. I see the bigger picture in the current situation and moment. My mind isn’t fixed on the trial, but rather seeking Him and His joy throughout it all. I have witnessed things I have never imagined, and asked God “Why?” but my desire and trust in Him triumphed the questioning because I KNOW He is the King of kings and Lord of lords. And when He says all things work together for HIS good, He means it.
My desires no longer lie in seeing miracles performed. Rather my desire is for others to experience the goodness of Jesus Christ our Savior, and the radiant joy that comes along with it. And once you get a taste of it, you will desire more and more of Him. You are surrendering it all and declaring, “you are enough God. I trust and love you.” You are the paint brush and you are giving Him full authority as the sovereign Author to paint His picture for your life. Will you trust that painting will be the most beautiful painting for your life even when you can’t see the big picture?
Even if I walk away not seeing one miraculous miracle on this journey, I can be used to be a miracle to others and share with them the God of miracles. I went from seeking God in an exchange for something, to seeking God because He is worthy and sovereign enough to be sought. And that is a miracle in itself.
I challenge you all to truly seek the abundance of God. Doesn’t it ignite something in your spirit that the depths of God is limitless? And that He promises you access to it all? Our God is so faithful and amazing that performing and being a miracle just comes along with serving and glorifying Him.
The deeper you go in God, the deeper you will experience Him. I can’t put into words the joy and love I have for people, life, and Him. And since I can’t, you have to experience it yourself! You want a better relationship with God? Work at it. You want joy? Ask Him for it. Straight like that!
I love you all.
Rashad
