6 weeks of quarantine. Emotions are high, you’re just a little bit tired of the people that you have been quarantining with, you’re desperate for some alone time, you’re bored, you miss your community, you miss the normalcy of life, the list goes on and on. We’ve all had these feelings, and maybe you’re feeling some of these things at this very moment. I know for me at times I have felt all of the above plus more. 6 weeks of abnormality & the Lord has been showing me the same thing in many different ways.
“I will always find you in this place. I will always meet you in this place. I will always fill you with what you need in that place.”
In the past when I would feel things like anxiety, annoyance, uncertainty, anger, or overwhelmed my immediate reaction would be to sit there in those emotions, paralyzed & unable to move on. Lately however, when I start to feel any one of those emotions is when I actually feel most secure in who the Father is. These emotions have been common for me since coming home, which honestly I feel is pretty normal. I’m now in a world where I feel a deeper need for community than I ever had, but I can’t have it physically. I need space to be with the Father, but physically sometimes there’s no space. My circumstances have sure changed a lot, but the Father didn’t. He’s still faithful, still good, still patient, & still oh so loving. So instead of wanting to sit in those emotions paralyzed, i’ve found myself desiring more & more to just be at His feet in the throne room. It’s where I feel most loved, most filled, and find the most freedom. Where else could I even desire to go?
