I’m in a season now where home no longer looks like crowded bedrooms, sharing a bathroom with 7 (sometimes more) women, and walls covered with photographs & scripture. Where I’m physically alone a decent portion of my day. Where time with God & worship is now a choice that I have to make every day & not a team time. Where I have to choose into community & accountability now more than ever.
I’m now in a season where it’s my turn to empower my community just like I was empowered by one these past seven months.
I have been home from the race for about a week now, and to be honest with you it still doesn’t feel completely real. Memories, smells, and sounds from these past seven months are still so vividly on the forefront of my mind. My heart wasn’t ready to leave over two months early, but in reality I guess it was. I have been holding on to this truth ever since stepping back on to American soil: my Heavenly Father knew before I even signed up for the race when it would end.
I am in a season now where an awful lot of things are uncertain. There’s a lot of disappointing news on the TV & the radio. The topic of most conversations these days usually revolves around a virus.
But there IS good news.
The good news is that He’s with me, He’s with all of us. The good news is that He offers hope. The good news is that in the midst of all of the uncertainty right now, He’s actually steadfast. The good news is that in the chaos, He still offers peace. The good news is that if we just trust Him He won’t lead us astray. (Proverbs 3:5-6, John 16:33, Psalm 23, James 1:2)
Now is a time where the Lord is building up strength, endurance, and grit within me. It sure isn’t easy, but more of Him & His heart is always worth it to me.
Sorry world, I choose grit & peace over chaos & fear.
