i’ve been longing for a place i didn’t know actually existed

a place i didn’t even realize you could call a “place”

because it isn’t just one location

it isn’t just one home

it isn’t just one room

 

it’s a place filled with emotion, a place filled with surprise

this place is ever moving, ever changing, yet ever the same

what an upside down idea

that such a place could ever exist

 

have you ever experienced that before? 

the realization that where you were meant to be was not one location

but your place was actually fluid 

and it moved around as your physical self does 

 

my place in this season? where He has called me to. 

today it’s inside of a cafe, typing these words, listening to giggles of squadmates outside the door

 

tomorrow it’s sunday service, right next door

and next week it’s a completely different town 

one an entire bus ride away from here 

 

but I’ve never felt more at home

I’ve never felt more “meant to be” in one place 

and maybe that’s because I’ve finally figured it out

I think I’ve finally learned my heart’s home

 

my home is all over 

and that place sometimes doesn’t make sense

because it’s an upside down kingdom

and while I may be told that I should just stay

and plant my feet where roots can grow

I’m just peering into the surface 

of a place I didn’t know actually existed

Until about a year ago. 

 

Welcome to our race. 

W Squad 2019 

Mongolia