So it takes me a while to process….
To process what I’ve just heard, seen, what I’m thinking…
you name it and I’m processing it!
But really is that a bad thing?
I think of those hot tempered times when I make those rush decisions or say something I regret out of anger/fear/hurt, in hopes to hurt someone else! They never seem to turn out good!
If I had taken the time to pray over and process the situation, the outcome would have been totally different!
What does processing look like for me?
If it’s something small:It might just be me taking a minute to run through the information.
Maybe say a quick prayer, or ask a clarifying question.
Then, speak the words that come to mind. If it’s something especially deep:
It’s being alone or isolating myself in the situation or even zoning out
Running through what was told/the information in my mind,
Reading over it,
Soaking it in…
Writing down any big observations.
Compiling/clarifying the questions that have arisen.
Answer the questions
Or seek out the answer to the questions, from the Lord or a friend (if a friend
can answer that kind of question!)
Running through the “image if…” scenarios… “if I did this…than this…”
Sitting and dwelling on the findings.
Praying about what is revealed to me!
Praying for guidance over what has been learned or praying for guidance for what is to be learned! Praying for guidance in my next steps. Taking the next steps.
Honest moment here: for me sometimes I try to do things on my own, use my own strength, my mind, my past experiences, to do things my way,…to inform my decisions….
Sometimes my decisions turn out ok or even good, but a lot of times they end up turning out bad!
I’m working on making prayer the starting point in these processing steps!
In the small,
the normal,
the everyday,
the major,
the life changing kind…
really all of them…
The first step is talking with the Lord….
He knows the situation…
He knows the factors at play…
He knows me and loves me….
He knows my heart and how I feel about the situation/decision to be made…
He knows the consequences…
He knows what will happen…
He knows everything…
It’s silly not to consult with someone who knows everything!!!
Not only does He know everything, He has our best interests at heart!
(let me explain this… does it mean that you’ll get everything your way… no…
or even get everything you want…no! What I’m saying is that He is a loving Father who knows that sometimes this hard time or these hard decisions are not meant to hurt you, but to strengthen you and are what you need at that moment in time!)
So in a world where rash actions and doing things as quickly as you can… to produce more, gain more… I’m an anomaly…
In other words… for all you tech savvy people, where everything’s at your fingertips with the touch of a button instantly, I’m the wait circle that pops up….
I’ll continue to be the wait circle and be proud of it, because it is who I am, but also it’s how the Lord made me!
So If you’re looking for me… I’m probably trying to find a quite spot to process…
• That I find the balance between my internal processing self and my team members. • That I learn to process on the fly when needed, but take the time when needed to dig in!
• That I find my processing area/zone in all the chaos!
