what started as a spontaneous decision to apply for the world race has created a burning desire to go. go forth & serve; live with abandonment & fully trust that my God will provide. however, since my last blog post i have spent a lot of time wrestling with God. wrestling with nerves, anxiety, distrust & a whole host of other things. yet, through all of these thoughts, one thing has prevailed:
GOD IS GOOD!
i have learned how hard it is to truly trust in God’s timing & plans, but when i am able to, the nerves, anxiety & fear run the other way. i have seen that if this is what God has shown me or called me to, whatever i am currently struggling with is irrelevant because God has called me to the other side.
i have been humbled time & time again as i began to recognize that God is the one who gets all the glory. i am not the hope of the world. i am merely a carrier of the news. as i have sent out letters to family & friends, i have been blown away by the support! i currently have $8,195 pledged to be donated over the next 10 months. let me say that again: $8,195 IS PLEDGED TO BE DONATED OVER THE NEXT 10 MONTHS. if that is not proof that God is present & showing up time & time again for me, i don’t know what is. i praise God for his provision, for his constant support & his peace that has continued to wash over me as the fears creep back into my mind.
as i continue to fundraise & prepare for this experience, i continue to ask for prayer. pray for continued trust on my part: trust that God knows what he is doing & will be beside me. i also ask for continued prayer for my fundraising. while i am amazed at how much i have raised, there is still a long way to go. i am almost at the halfway mark!! if you feel led to donate, i would greatly appreciate any amount!
as i continue to wrestle with God & this change of plans in life, i am reminded that “you have been called to do something. God has given you the gifts & strengths to do this, & there is a mountain of need out there waiting for you to begin.” i am finally at the point that i can say, “i am ready to start!”
thanks for reading!
mads
