I think for the last few years on my Christian walk I have been asleep spiritually. Kind of just coasting it. On one hand I’ve desired this life where I walk holy and blameless before the Lord and hold true to my convictions, but on the other I have thought to myself, “What’s so wrong with going out with friends and having some beers? I mean I am back in America right?” And it’s so easy to fall back into the patterns of life we were living before we came to know the Lord. I would say that I was a Christian but the way I was living would say otherwise. Romans 12:2 “Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but rather be transformed the renewing of your mind.”
Well January 5th, 2020 I was awakened. Something just clicked with my heart and my head. I don’t want to live a life of complacency. I honestly believe the Church is waking up this year and not farting around anymore with their faith. I don’t want to just say I’m a Christian but not act like it. I mean does God deserve that? Someone who is back and forth with their decision to follow him no matter the cost? The Bible says he would rather spit us out of his mouth if we are lukewarm in our walk with him. We are neither hot or cold? (Revelation 3:16) Like if we are flaky with him. Has that verse sunk in with you? Or is it one we kindly like to just brush over and use grace as an excuse to keep living the way we’ve known for years? Oh if you repent and confess God will forgive you. Oh honey we are all sinners here. Bless your (his/her/their) heart. And yes you’re right. But that is a cop out and I think we all know it. We would rather be complacent with our response then give someone the hard truth of their decisions and actions. Maybe that was harsh but I don’t care. Because his sacrifice of sending his son to the cross isn’t something to mess with. Your salvation is not something to mess with because it’s eternal!
The way you live your life now is setting you up for your eternal dwelling. (Literally just thought of that and my mind is blown) We are living as if we are going to heaven or hell each and every day.
A lot of people will argue and say that there are grey areas with certain topics in the Bible then it snowballs into this crazy theological, predestination, political debate when really he is so clear about many issues our world is facing today. It’s pretty crystal clear to me.
We simply love God enough to leave our old self behind and put on a new garment of righteousness or we don’t.
We know him or we don’t.
We love others despite their political affiliation or we don’t.
We love others no matter what or we don’t.
We go and get plastered with our friends or we don’t.
We honor the marriage bed or we don’t.
We live for him or we don’t.
We would die for him or we won’t.
Would you want a flaky significant other? Ha no! No one does! So why would God? Think about it.
You meet someone and you reallllllllly click. Like they get you. You love the same shows and movies, they love coffee, long walks on the beach, eating out yada yada yada. You guys hang out all the time, go out on dates and things start to take off. Slowly things start to fade after 3 months. The dates are fewer and far between, the calls are less frequent, and then the messages are less and less. You wonder why they aren’t responding because you thought it was going somewhere. That’s how God feels about us when we decide to follow him and then after a few months we just ghost him. I’ve been there. I’ve put him on the back burner and not made him my priority. And that’s where I go wrong every time. Because he’s worthy of my thoughts, my breath, my actions, my time, and being first in my life.
I never want the fire inside of me to just fade away to a small lit candle that is in a dark room. No. I want my flames to just get bigger and bigger and catch everything around me on fire. Because when you encounter the Holy Spirit it changes you. Why? Because it’s powerful and you want more. And better yet you want others to experience this crazy love that you get to find freedom in! Oh what’s that? I want it. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m chasing after more of this fire because I can’t get enough of it. And honestly some of my decisions that I make might not make sense to you. And that’s okay because I’m not after your opinion or two cents of what I should or shouldn’t do. All he asks me is if I’ll say yes to him! It’s that simple! I’ve been making things SO complicated in my relationship with the Lord all these years. I’ve somehow always gone back to justifying my actions for temporary pleasures that only leave me more empty on the inside and searching for this thing to satisfy me. But he literally is the only constant thing that makes me feel satisfied. He’s the only one that can satisfy me more than a wild night out on the town waking up the next morning in someone else’s bed wondering, how did I get here? (a little straight forward but I think you get the point) He’s the only one that my soul longs to know more and more of his heart. It’s the most beautiful dance that I get to be in. He knows exactly when I’m going to trip over something and he’s right there to catch me and place me back on my feet. He knows when I’m going to accidently step on his feet only to grin and nod his head because he’s such a gentleman. He knows when I fall behind or get ahead of myself and he graciously pulls me back to steady ground. I mess up, I fall flat on my face, embarrass myself, make the wrong decisions but he never leaves me. Instead he pulls me in closer to his heart and tells me, “My precious daughter don’t you remember the promises I told you?” and it’s the warmest embrace.
I’m going to live what I believe and not care what others behind me might think. Because God’s approval is the only thing I’m seeking after. And I just am begging you to ask yourself what are you living for? Are you living each day as if you would go to heaven or hell?
I’m awake God. Let’s go.
Galatians 1:10 “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
