It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog. I cannot believe that this month is coming to an end and that means a close to team YOJ as well (insert sad face). As things start to come to an end. I only have one more month until I’m back on US soil. My emotions are all over the place. I’m excited to go back and be able to understand what people are saying. I’m excited for comfort. But at the same time I’m sad, this community I have lived with and shared multiple life experiences, crazy encounters and adventures will all be dispearsed once being back from the Race.
Thinking of going back home, I have constantly thought about what I’m going to do. When I signed up for the race I thought this will be a great year, I would hit pause on my life for a year until I returned. I expected to help people around the world for eleven months only to return to my life and hit play. Oh how I was so wrong. Living this life, I have changed, my values and what I want out of life is COMPLETELY different. It’s funny how traveling overseas, living in community that points you back to the Lord on a consistant basis could change life this much.
As of right now, I have no idea what I want to do when I get back to the United States at the end of June. My heart’s desire is to love people well but I have no idea in what capacity or where.
Recently, it has been on my heart to Squad Lead with Adventures in Missions, I have thrown the idea of applying for a Children’s Director for a church. Even possibly moving to another state. All of this is up in the air, just soeme ideas that have been swirling around in my brain. I’m not quite sure. I think this is the first time in my life that I am okay with the decision of not knowing- I am at peace.
If you know me, you know this is so not like me. Even when I was 16 years old I wrote out a life plan till I turned 30. Hahaha and looking back at it- some of it happened but a lot of it didn’t either.
P.S.
Love you all! Seriously sometimes I just pinch myself and think how crazy is it that I am overseas. Thank you for all your love, financial support, prayer and words of encouragement. 🙂 I apperciate every single one of you human beings! <3
in the end, she became
more than what she expected.
she became the journey,
and like all journeys,
she did not end, she just
simply changed directions
and kept going
