I’m almost done with college. I am freaking out and am excited, nervous, and sad that I am about to walk the stage.
I just bought my one-way plane ticket to Georgia for The World Race. I haven’t ever done that.
I am moving out of my house in 1 month. My lease ends and I have to live temporarily with some amazing people who are letting me crash until I leave.
I just got my squad letter and color (V Squad and we are red).
I’ve written and re-written this post multiple times. The truth is, I am so ready to be done with school because it is putting so much weight on my shoulders. I feel like it is weighing me down and I feel like this is the most work I’ve done in the previous years. I don’t know how I’ve been able to struggle through the papers, the projects, and my part-time job. I don’t think I’m doing it well, but what I can look forward to is the time where I can just focus on the moment. I can look toward the ministry in each country or to my team mates. I don’t have to remember to write an essay on a movie. I don’t have to come up with debate topics that focus on media law. I can just focus my eyes on God.
What I’m not ready for is saying goodbye to my family. I’m not looking forward to the last worship night where my name will be called and my friends will come up and cry with me that I’ll be gone. I’m not ready to look my boyfriend in the eye and say “I’ll see you in 11 months.” I’m also not ready to see my 2 best friends and know that our time together is ending for a long time and we are each going separate ways.
I don’t know what is going on (basically my life). I don’t know what is to come. I don’t know how I will get through this time of waiting and struggling, but I know I will. I have the Lord of everything by my side, but I’m still hurting.
I’ll be saying goodbye to so many people and to so many experiences that have shaped my life. Please be gentle because my heart is tender and I am sad even though I’ll be experiencing so many great things.
I love you all, and please, if you would, just hit the donate button at the top and help me reach my goal of $5.000 by April 15th.
-Jo
