Where to begin? We are nearly through with training and in just a few days I will be setting out with my team. It has been an incredible and wild ride so far. So much growth and stretching in such a short amount of time. Training camp has consisted of teaching, worship, chilling and getting to know the team, walking the streets, adapting to life in Cambodia, studying the Word, and learning how this time can and will impact the rest of our lives if we allow it to shape and take root in our hearts.
A little something that the Lord has been teaching me is a spirit of willingness. Not so much from the perspective of going to every part of the world to share the Gospel (which is definitely a stirring in my heart), but to be willing to see and seek God for who He truly is. While I desire so deeply to love others and my heart explodes for sharing the Gospel all over the world, the Lord has taken these first couple of weeks to till the soil of my own heart and break down walls in my own life. I am beginning to lay down what Hunter Beck believes about life and ministry, and really seek seek God for who He is, rather than seeking Him from the confines of a box that feels comfortable. I am beginning to deeply seek the Lord and what He wants for me rather than what I think is right or what I should be doing. While a process, I’ve loved diving into conversations, digging deeper into the Word, and seeking the Lord with a deep craving to hear His voice. Furthermore, while difficult at times, the Lord has softened my heart to press in during these moments. I realize if the Lord has placed something on my heart, even if difficult, press into it, for God has placed it on my heart for a reason.
What’s the result? So much growth in such a short amount of time. I am loving it. While the tension of breaking down barriers and challenging my views of ministry and life is stretching me, I have begun to enjoy the tension. Why? Because I’ve seen what comes out on the other end. I realize these moments of tension are just an opportunity to go deeper with Jesus and crave more of His presence, time with Him, guidance from Him, and just more of Him and I am stoked for this. I am excited to walk further in the tension, so that I can look less like myself and the things I dwell on, and more like Christ.
