After a couple weeks of high emotion and chaos getting the exciting news out that I will be doing the World Race this coming fall, I have come to a standstill in fundraising and of what to do next, this has brought doubt into my mind. Recently, I have been down and very emotional. Many of you know, that I just got the news that I tore my ACL. This has put a strain on me emotionally and physically, not only with the sport of soccer but also my plans for the World Race. I have had the same questions going through my mind. What is Gods purpose in this? Does this show a sign if I am meant to go? I came home tonight and felt that same struggle and sadness I have been feeling continuously this past couple of days. The feeling of shock and constantly being on the verge of breaking down in tears. I chose to take some time tonight to do devotions and worship by listening to some songs, hoping to find answers to my questions in either. I read the verse, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way” (Proverbs 3:5-6). It really hit me, could I be trying to take on the responsibilities of this whole trip all on my own, not allowing any room for my God to work. If we give God the opportunity to take control, he will come through in the end, because His plan is more complex and far brilliant than we can image. It blows my mind that I have a great God that watches over me and that will give me comfort in these times of hardship. We will never experience the full love and beauty of God if we don’t fully surrender ourselves to Him and His idea for our lives. This verse revealed to me that having peace in this process is all according to me having faith that He has me in his hands with a bigger picture in mind. I can surpass these obstacles and I look to this trip as an opportunity to get to know this astonishing God more deeply and follow Him into the unknown, when I have the confidence that he will guide and support me through anything I encounter along this journey. I give a big thank you to my friends and family who give never-ending encouragement and accompany me through this process, both the high and low times. I not only need God but also my friends and family. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts, feelings, and experiences as I prepare for this venture!
