When I stared the race I thought that I was going to fall in love with blogging. I envisioned myself as an active writer, soaking up moments and scribbling them down on a pad of paper or typing them out on my phone to write out later that week. But it’s been 7 months since I started the race. And I have written a grand total of…7 blogs. Funny enough I greatly enjoy writing. I know it doesn’t seem like it, but sharing stories via writing is something I do like to do.
But I’ll be honest, I have made up excuses not to blog or even post the ones I have written. The excuses go a little bit like this: “I don’t have anything to write about.” “Who would want to read about my story?” “It won’t be good enough or perfect so I can’t post it.” These were my raw honest thoughts and doubts that steamed from a desire to be perfect. I built up walls of excuses so high that I believed that they were real. That there was no way around, through, or under them. Those walls I placed all around me, made me feel stuck. I was trapped in my own mind prison. Wild right?
This raw honesty about not being perfect is something I have been learning about over the past 7 months on this journey with the World Race. It’s been an anthem I have been learning about: Live transparently. Don’t hide behind your happy-go-looking paper-mache mask. The mask that is made up of tacky glue and strips of only the best parts of your life. Don’t cover up the blemishes, because no one is perfect. We aren’t porcelain painted perfections, instead we are humans. And most humans want the real you. Not the best version, they want the ‘authentic you’. The weird, strange, funny, beautiful, messy you. Be open. Be honest. Be you.
So, yeah. These past seven months have been a journey of embracing my messiness. Of sharing that messiness with my three teams: Groot, Logistics, and Lighthouse. Of realizing that so many people love me for just the way I am, and that they love me enough to point out my faults, which hurts, but is so helpful. We are in this journey of refinement together, a journey that I hope you can see through some of the stories I share here on my blog.
